Spot The References

It is absolutely delightful when pals and more are able to spot references in works and realize that there's more than meets the eye. But some of us, freaks, are over here, going out of our minds, yet trying to keep it cool, because... No. Actually. It didn't make 3 references, Katie. It is making 10 to 20+. AND ON TOP OF THAT, you gotta consider the socio-political, cultural, and historic context that all led up to it. And AHHH! I'm fine. This is fine. We're fine.

Just breathe and calm down. You can list it all out later.

TikTok Stories?

I NEED TO BE MESSY. BUT I DON'T WANT MESSES.

Time to give TikTok stories a try? I'll post some there and see if it flies with me.

Don't Mind Me and My Depleted Social Bar

My current state is that I had to shut off being a 'Host' and instead am being a Cook with some overhearable chitchatter in the back kitchen. But people are still welcome to dine here. ✌

Happy Labor

This year is not so ideal yet, as I rush and scramble to have all that counts in order to call this out of the 'Loading' phase, but I dream of having more days off next year. And be able to do my work steadily and comfortably. That's paradise for me.

A Crowned G?

November 10th, 2020. Remember the time I made a fuss about this bed cover? Back then, I only noticed the obvious. But I seem to be developing a better eye for detail now. There's a G with a Crown, there's O O O, I also see 2D, and more. Anyway, this is still my fav bed cover because it was such an unexpected and serendipitous find that felt custom-made for me. Some things are just timeless, if you know what I mean. And this is only one instance, out of many, of me being 'in love' with the wonder around me. My best advice right now: TAKE PICTURES. You will thank yourself later. I'm still aiming to organize my past better, so please be patient with me and my sporadic (and often seemingly incoherent) posts. Once I can get going again, I'll be putting everything in place. And it'll be MAGICAL!

The Artist's RPG / Character Profiles: Yoel

Alright, while introducing Profiles, might as well introduce a second character. This is, let’s call him, Yoel. I was looking for a male name that starts with ‘Y’ and was quickly set on ‘Yoel’ when I saw it. Funnily enough, in Spanish, if you break apart the syllables as Yo-El, it is basically saying Me-Him. And that’s quite fitting, in my opinion. So I’m keeping it.

As with Gary's, and any profile that’s yet to come, the details may be off. But I tried my best to stick with what I witnessed and/or intuited as I watched him take shape. That’s one dangerous configuration he has there, indeed. Especially if/when the masses are sheeple. Truth be told, though, he can entice practically anyone until he’s done with his act or we’re done with it.

And speaking of acts. I got one for Gary so I had to get one for Yoel, too. Same process: vague prompt, grab the first one that comes up. And this is what I got. Some parts of the lyrics snuck in and surprised me. Still, I personally find Gary’s to be more of a banger. And WTH? He sounds like the Devil, yet is calling somebody else the devil? Should I interpret that as a typical projection/false accusation, or is there some sort of inside “joke” there? Or what? Hmm.

(By the way, for both videos, I let YouTube pick the thumbnails. Just saying.)

The Artist's RPG / Library

Apparently, Gary wants you to believe in him. And I just want you to dispel as many illusions as you possibly can, wherever that leads. So, while I haven’t yet brought up the base descriptions of the essences, the least I can do is point you to how they translate within the context of learning, for knowledge and understanding. Hence, here’s the "Library" (specifically, for 'circuit-based' learning).

Ya’ll, I don’t think they got Solarpunk in the future…
Regardless, may our studying bring, if nothing else, the clarity we crave.

The Artist's RPG / Character Profiles: Gary

You requested it. I delivered it. Introducing Character Profiles. With no less than Gary. Or my current impression of him, anyway, which may or may not be off - way off. He’s giving… spirited. And also delightfully blunt. Please, keep it up, leave no room for doubt. At least among the crew.

I guessed at his top components, too. For both the conceptual and the structured planes. These are the ones I’ve witnessed and/or intuited the most with the most effect, while watching him take shape. But the order may be wrong, and maybe one or more of those aren’t at the top. Because, remember, anyone can pretty much access and activate any component. The issue is to what degree and with how much ease. And speaking of such, his overall mastery sits at ‘adequate’, or so he allows people to assume, which is level 6. My dude, looks like you need the crew as much as the crew needs you.

NOTE: I DO NOT make myself responsible for players falling in love with my OCs. 😂

I have a history of that happening when I do role-playing. So, you are warned. Don’t get too addicted ‘cause I have more things to do besides channeling Gary. (I will keep quietly figuring him out, though.)

Can “fictional characters” be real? I don’t effin’ know, man. You tell me.

Another thing! Go Team A.R.T.! Playing on the side of Brightness & Balance is playing on Hard Mode. You are not only battling against opposing teams, but you are also battling against Entropy, which is on the side of Vices instead of Virtues. So when those pricks are bragging about winning, remember that they are bragging about winning on Easy Mode.

Also, AI Generation is rapidly getting more and more astonishing. I entered a vague prompt and got this sound piece within seconds. I’m claiming it as a draft for a Character Theme Song within The Artist’s RPG universe. In this case, Gary’s introduction: I told you so. (He did, he freakin' did, several times, COUNTLESS TIMES.)

7/10+ Outfits

People who have access to seeing me in my everyday life would see me with various different outfits, ranging all the way from 0/10 to 10/10. Obviously, I'm not gonna be posting my lousiest outfits because, you know, I don't want so many more people to look at me like I'm a crazy person. But I have also failed to post outfits that are 7/10 and above. I'm just not very active and outgoing these days (recovery, etc.), but I might be posting a lot more eventually.

BBL, Putting My Feet on The Ground

Friendly reminder that balance is important. If you've been engaging in contemplation too much for too long, and it is dizzying, you may require some grounding. Whether that's theorizing, hypothesizing, deconstructing and rearranging your entire reality, or going into the abstract in general, grounding exercises can serve you. It doesn't mean you will be negating the value in contemplation. It merely means that you are choosing to, in some amount, ground yourself in something firmer or more 'concrete'. So that you can remain lucid instead of falling into lunacy. Grounding work is such an emphasized concept among spiritual folks because it is so undeniably fundamental and essential to practice as often as it is due when dealing with the spiritual.

Hero Who? To Who?

Listen. I’m not saying that Enrique Iglesias popping up while I’m out and about is an extremely rare occurrence, but I am definitely saying that I absolutely love it when he does! And in this case, it was with one of the songs I’ve always loved the most (f-boys haven’t totally ruined it for me yet, but I’m wary). We often see him for his fun and sexy works, but much of it is also unbelievably transcendental (and that’s a topic for another day). I just had to capture the moment while simultaneously showing the peculiar table I ended up with!

Too Early and Too Late? Coffee!

Y’all. I am currently very dizzy from pondering so much over the past few days, but I had to bring up this compilation before too long. This was when I went out to see Project Hail Mary. The “logical” thing would have been to post it along with it, or right after, since it happened the same day, but it seemed too much like a completely separate event to me. The mood and vibes of it weren’t saying sparkly outer space movie. They were saying K-Drama, Start-Up style.

So now that I’m “virtually” opting for a different working space (and pace), here comes this environment. By the way, how old were you when you realized that ‘Sandwich” almost spells “Sand-Witch”? ‘Cause that was quite a moment for me when it happened.

Besides dice and more to play on the board game table, there were stickers on the glass next to it and I was compelled to snap pictures of a couple of them. Whoever damaged the side of the head of that lil’ guy in one of them must be such a troll. I take no responsibility for it. It wasn’t me. I just wanted pictures and somehow that didn’t stop me from taking them. My job here is done, in bringing more of my in-person life to the site, out of the very few instances I do go out.

Speaking of Synchronicities…

I’ve been looking at my content structure and have decided that, indeed, I should be paying more attention to my Psyche section. It’s been there for so long and it’s such an integral part of this whole ordeal of being an artist. I am particularly fond of it because it allows me to freely dwell in countless possibilities without having to actively add the disclaimer that I haven’t yet gone completely mad. It is simply exploring the Psyche, a part of existence we all still have little clue about. Yet, it is oh so intriguing and fascinating! Maybe we will encounter a few undeniable and applicable truths while diving into it. But if not, we can bet there will be plenty of ideas for amazing fiction!

Writing Under The Paranormal Genre

Ya'll, I'm not done making my guidelines, but this is a place to start. If you're writing paranormal stories with Synchronicities as a theme and don't want your characters to be too batshit crazy, you can make them more nitpicky about what they will consider 'odd' enough to count as something 'supernatural'. See if the event or item meets this criterion, and even when it does, see to what extent.

You can log the occurrences by noting Prompt (what led to them), Date & Time, Place, Item #1, Item #2, Item #3, and Weaving (how they might relate to meaning in the fabric of existence). And then mark which ones are way too out of the ordinary to dismiss     , which get attention but are too easily just a coincidence (or mental gymnastics to make it seem extraordinary)     , plus more in between. Over time, you might collect enough occurrences from ~the 5D~ to reveal a picture that helps solve a mystery or simply show that something strange is going on (that or someone won the lottery in having the most unbelievable amount of mind-blowing coincidences happen around them).

Or just leave this to others! You don't oughta torment yourself like this! 😂
(There's more that goes into it that I haven't typed out.)

3-Month Summer Break

My plan for this summer will not be a 2-month break but an entire 3-month break. 

All from the beginning of June to the end of August.

I will continue doing work (and posting regularly and occasionally), but my socializing and more will continue to be kept at a minimum. I’m still in that mix of having plenty to get done while also having plenty to restore. I’ll miss out on much, indeed, but I will get to it once I’m in the clear again.

And speaking of restoration, I will be immersing in art. However, my full appreciation of it will come later. It doesn’t mean it is valued less. If anything, I’m extra grateful that it exists while I most require it. When I can barely be. So please be patient!

I’m also looking forward to meeting with M. (a.k.a. long-time geek friend and long-term project partner) and maybe regain some strength and focus to tend to another pending and due responsibility I have. There are no guarantees, though. (I don’t whine 24/7, but believe me: it is bad.)

Pals, I hope you all can enjoy the summer however it best suits you.
With or without me popping in. See you when I can! ⛅

It Is Crazy but So Is This

I love creative writing. Because while you can 'create' a whole universe and that pretty much gives you permission to do whatever you fancy and go wherever your whims take you, you can also choose to be very strict about how logically coherent and congruent it is (within itself and consistent across a multiverse). Though I appreciate imaginative works, I've always enjoyed the most when art imitates reality (so that we can learn through and from it). Therefore, for a story to appeal to me, it has to make sense at least to the degree that it MIGHT be possible somewhere and sometime. The project I'm currently on has landed me on topics of the after life (with ghosts) AND above life (with 5D beings). And of course, that can sound insane if merely blurted out with no rhyme or reason. However, I'll be happy to include theories and hypotheses on how and why this or that isn't too far-fetched. I can't claim which one explanation it is for sure. I'm just a mere mortal with limited senses, processing, and access to data. But I can present the possibilities that come to me and let the viewers/readers consider them and maybe realize and ideate more from there, matching or dismatching them. This is also forcing me to stretch my own mind and gather more information, which, as usual, I'm grateful for.

Returning to Summer

Seasons change, we're still spinning...
Did Spring surprise you? Yes or no, it’s okay. Get some you time this Summer.

"You Oughta Chill." I Certainly Do!

The struggle is real between being in the moment and getting footage. I did more of the former, but couldn’t be without at least a few captures. I got a headache around midnight, due to a combination of factors (partly my bad), and it forced me to sneak out and chill some more until it passed. I still be chillin’, tho, ‘cause this burnout is serious.

So.. There's a Spot...

Back to the 3D! We ended up at a small hotel in La Romana. And I was more than pleased with it! It exceeded my expectations (and met the 3 Bs: bueno, bonito, y barato). The vibes and mood of it were perfect for me and, given the season and more, exactly what I was yearning for (hopefully, I wasn’t alone in that).

That light-reflecting orb almost stole the entire show. I didn’t know it would be its day and night. But there it was, all along. Making it even more magical. I was able to enjoy a fantastic welcome, a pleasant atmosphere, and a room that had everything we could ask for. Add to that, the place was practically all to ourselves during this time. Yes, I indeed got away.

It was an ordeal to get there, however. The first impression, when we stopped by the residential area surrounding it, was that it was closed and abandoned. Then, we couldn’t reach it by phone. But after leaving to check other hotels, we were assured that it existed. So we went back to try again. Once finally inside, it was as if it were a whole other world.

Board Games Forever

Y’all, it continues. My BFF and I are still BFFs. And she indeed made it here! My energy has been very low and off, because of reasons, so I can’t expect to suddenly be at my 100%. But it was, for sure, significantly uplifting and fulfilling to see her again! I cherished it during and I’ll cherish it beyond.

It also made me happy that, despite how many years have gone by, and how much has changed throughout the years, playing board games when we hang out continues to be our ‘tradition’. Our thing. They are taking it to whole other levels now, though. Such an incredible collection of games! I was introduced to some I hadn’t even seen before. Shamelessly, it was a night for me to be a beginner. But I’ll gladly take my losses!

Sorry, but also... That's How It Goes...

I’m sorry, I just get absolutely FERAL when it comes to people who have, are, and continue to sacrifice without applause or compensation, not even external incentives, to do the reasonable, compassionate, and brave thing. NOTHING is above them in my book. Some people get worldly rewards for their choices, and some people get momma bear aggressively growling at anyone and anything that dares come close without paying the utmost respect. You know how it goes. ✌

Dense or Skeptic?

I've seen way too many movies already where there's paranormal stuff going on and the person who notices it tries to tell others about it by being blunt and unreserved. I'd much rather be blunt and unreserved, but this is where I'd make an exception to my rule. They just look mad. Which is not only embarrassing but also causes them to lose credibility and, with it, the ability to actually communicate important or even urgent truths. So, no, you won't catch me claiming that there are aliens messing around within our "reality", but you'll catch me docum- *ahem* making art.

ABSOLUTELY LOVE THE NERDS who still go into these topics like whatever, though.
Please keep it up!

The Loading Phase

Y’all, I’ve been pondering it and… I really ought to change my plans for this year.

I will be further leaning into what I’ve called ‘The Loading Phase’.

Initially, the plan was to keep making Sunday Morning articles so that I could finish covering all the basics of what it implies and entails to Unbridle & Sustain Artistic Abilities, to have a reliable archive readily accessible to everyone, new here or not, before acknowledging TintySun as ‘established’ and moving on to more specific and/or advanced topics, in no particular order. However, I’ve decided I’ll stop releasing Sunday Morning articles this year and instead resume that when the next cycle begins. I will continue posting The Artist’s RPG content in the afternoon, though.

I cannot go on not even following my own damn advice. Therefore, I’ll do what I believe is best for me and my art. And in this case, that means cutting down on ‘obligations’ and making room to more thoroughly tend to what I must (body, mind, heart, and soul included). I’m not betting on ever being as chirpy as I once was, but I can definitely return to loving my work. And that’s the aim. 

For me:

More love = higher quality & quantity 

(And just not dreading and despising this!)

I will keep being active in other ways, albeit sporadically rather than regularly. Yet, mostly ‘keep my head down’, focusing on UI/UX fixes, improvements, and enhancements, as well as making some more content that is missing and that I’d rather not do without, for various sections.

I am genuinely still looking forward to everything ahead of us. The issue is simply that I am not currently in optimal shape for it. Neither are the sites. Hence, ‘The Loading Phase’ shall fully take over.

I’ll see you around and on the other side. ✌

The Artist's RPG / Components' Planes

I wasn't lying when I said that this would be my life's work. And that there's A LOT more to come. So if you haven't gotten sick and tired yet of me nerding out on The Artist's RPG, get ready to look ahead for more.

Undeniably, it's been beyond EPIC to explore the conceptual plane, which turned out to be predominantly blue. And it'll always stand out as being the plane of the "team". If you know what I mean. Therefore, even after moving on from it (on matters of design), it'll always be somewhat at the forefront.

It's been on my mind for quite a while to also have a 'Structured' plane in contrast to the 'Conceptual' plane. And then it became evident that the 'Morphing' plane was too relevant to ignore. A formative plane, as well, because of reasons. However, as I was figuring out their colors, I realized the pattern implied that there had to be 2 more planes - and I agree. Yet, those last two... are not so easy to get to.

My plan is basically to work on the first 4, these 4 years. I can go about them from what I've already gotten to know and what I can get to know within that time frame. But for the last 2, I might give 5 years each, before I start to put them together on paper. They'll require a lot more venturing and diving to complete. (Then again, as always, if at any point I find that something is missing in any of them, I will add it no matter when.)

In short, if I live long enough for it, here's how they're arriving in their more elaborate form:

• Conceptual Plane (Blue): 2026

• Structured Plane (Orange): 2027
• Morphing Plane (Red): 2028

• Formative Plane (Green): 2029

• ? (Yellow): 2030-2034
• ? (Purple): 2035-2039

I'll be taking notes throughout it all and occasionally blurting out what I've noticed, as I've been. We keep figuring things out as we go. But those are the dates I have so far for the sets of posts. More aspects of the game will be built in between, nevertheless!

Just something to look forward to if you can't get enough of this madness. 🤓🎨

In any case, I'm easing down into less hecticness so that there can be more learning and making and less scrambling around. Don't expect me to be very social, but you can expect me to be committed to working on this long-term. 🙌

Thought you'd seen the last of it? Think again!

Stay alive, don't miss out on this odyssey!  🌠

Revenge... Best Served?

I can't believe I got my revenge on my bullies from around 10 years ago, years ago, and am only now realizing I did. And it's waaaaaaaaaaaay better than anything I craved or yearned for at the time, anything I could even imagine as possible. Are you kidding me?! IYKYK.

Summer Is Ahead

In my hippie era, I guess?

August 6th, 2015. One of a few sets of selfies. I've said it before, I'll say it again. TAKE THE FREAKIN' SELFIE. Or photo or whatever. Even if you think it looks bad. You'll eventually be looking back and wishing you had captured more. It gets so damn nostalgic with time and more. I no longer live there and then, and even though I appreciated it before, I now have a newfound appreciation for the vibes of that place and period.

(I was indeed very skinny that year, though. 💀)

Moon Overview

In the case of the Moon, it primarily affects your emotional side and subconscious self. The Moon, just as it reflects sunlight and influences the tides, represents emotional rhythms, intuition, and inner responsiveness. Essentially, the Moon stands for the safety and protection of being at home. And it is in and through it that empathy, nurturing, and inner security develop.

When it comes to the Moon, the sign Cancer shares certain similarities and is said to be ruled by it.

What are Planetary Placements?

For context and more of relevance, please read about The Zodiac.

The Artist's RPG / Components: Armors?

The concept of Armors has been added to the Conceptual Plane. I will elaborate on them later on, but I'm not about to have you nerds waiting months for at least a vague idea of what I'm onto. So, basically:

Golden: Standing out, handling controversy, pulls agro...
Silver: Fitting in, maintaining appearances, repels agro...

Bronze: Getting it done, focusing on the tasks, quells agro...

Abyssal: Usurping ownership, playing victim, draws in unsuspecting targets (& drains their vitality)...

I'ma say I'm currently in my Bronze Armor era. Or lifetime, pfft. I'm quite comfortable over here, to be honest. But y'all can go do you, and I'll applaud you or just leave you be. People in Abyssal Armors, though, can f**** all the way off and away from me.

(By the way, no matter how neat and tidy I try to make these designs, and how I intend to maintain the symbolism, please remember that they're all still drafts!)

A Being of Light? Me? BARELY!

I figure, with how pissed off I get at injustices, corruption, and other character failures and shortcomings, that some may be wondering why I keep insisting that I'm not really a Justice Warrior. The thing is, I'm THIS pissed off because I'm not even asking for stellar exemplary behavior, I'M ONLY EXPECTING THE BARE F***ING MINIMUM OF DECENCY. And too many of you won't even do that. Instead, go around acting and/or speaking as if what I'm asking for is too much or even impossible. WTF. DO BETTER. Or stay the heck away from me and everyone who deserves better. Beings of Pure Light, I adore them, but their hustle is not something I can keep up with. While they're rectifying and practicing what they preach, I truly just wanna punch a motherf***er unconscious or out of this planet. I thank them for their work, because we all know we terribly need it. Meanwhile, however, I'm trying not to have my blood boiling too often and for too long.

From the Bottom Up

It's becoming a (self-imposed) mandatory act to bring back old posts whenever I end up going over something that's tied to it. And these days I've been listening to Imagine Dragons' music again. (Still love it, what can I say? Though the 'cynicism' I currently have does ruin the enjoyment to a significant extent.)

I got to post, on here, 2 times. Elsewhere? Who knows? I don't remember. All I remember is that I did listen to many of their songs back then, over and over again, and could also be personally fond of the name they picked for themselves. It really spoke to me.

So, what did I have to say around 10 years ago?

August 29th, 2015. A spontaneous media appreciation post. It's an icky song, but I'm glad and relieved this has been put into words.

June 12th, 2016. Another media appreciation post. The last paragraph got me thinking now. And maybe it should have been worded differently. Or maybe not. But I like to view it as the link to what we were before all the programming, conditioning, and "maturing", more like rust, got to us. I also seem to have been under the impression then that everyone is 'good' by default, or at least blank. I don't believe that anymore. Some of you demons are born and stay demons (just with more elaborate/intricate guises). It is what it is, though. But to clarify, and as I usually say, to those with enough humanity: Stay yourself, but WORK on yourself. We're here to learn, develop, and evolve.

"Botando el Golpe"

I'm so 'traumatized' by this decade's let-downs that I'm now wondering if some off-the-wall, unbelievably wild, occurrence will interfere with plans to have a good time, even with someone who has never in their entire life said, "I'll take a plane/bus/car there so we can hang out!" and not shown up. Something might happen, indeed, because it's life, but... Tsk, tsk. Y'all should be ashamed of yourselves.

Same but Worse

August 16th, 2015. A reflective post. Looking around, I am compelled to add the disclaimer that, "Hell, no, not to this extent it ain't my favorite." But here we are. In the middle of deeply catalytic events. Somebody asked for more witchyness? 

Off Forever?

I’ve been mulling this over and seem to have finally reached a conclusion I can stand on. It’s no news that I can’t do fake-politeness and pretend at fondness and such. But it also looks like I cannot overstate just how fundamental it is for me to be able to have trust and faith in those I surround myself with. I can only go on for so long believing, “Hey, this person has done this and that, so maybe they’re great and I’m safe with them.” There comes a point where there’s just not enough or nothing there for me to justify or even make sense of my involvement with them. It doesn’t necessarily mean that I’ll cut them out in every sense, but hanging out with them will no longer be. And in some cases, it’s like it’s what they were manifesting anyway. I could subject myself to the torture of continuing this nonsense, but I’d much rather not. And fortunately, there’s not a financial reason for me to be obligated to. Yet, despite how bitter all this may sound, I’ll still (joyfully whenever possible) be doing my work, which may benefit both those I can consider close and those I do not. Furthermore, as always, credit where credit is due, regardless of what’s personally in between, when the time comes, and unless anonymity is preferred. But for the rest of the time? I’m too much of a recluse to deal with any more of this BS. Let me do my work in peace and try not to be too huge pieces of sh*t here or elsewhere. ✌

I Thought It Was Supposed to be Orange?

Maybe even orange-yellow? But no, it's yellow. This was throwing me off, so I never posted these pictures before. But now I don't know. Maybe it was onto something all along? Today, in crazy RL foreshadowing from around 3 years ago. IYKYK. 💛

(Off I go again...)

May Continues to be OFF…

Still out. But I figure I owe more information about it, to those few who are closely keeping up with me and my stuff, and now that I’m more able to form words, here they come!

• I wanted to see Michael this month, but I’ll have to move that.
• I wanted to finish adding about Wonka this month, but I’ll also have to move that.
• I wanted to keep regularly posting on Sundays, but I’ll indeed also have to move that.

I require this break. Not merely being mute or reducing interactions, but being as disconnected as I can be to return to myself and replenish myself as I ought to. I was fortunate to miraculously have something I could ‘fall back’ on that’d make this not only easier, but much more effective. However, it is still looking like I’ll be needing plenty of time. I want to say all of May, and not extend it beyond, but we’ll see.

Do I feel guilty about it? Losing the streak and whatnot. Sometimes, yes. But I did say it. That this year and many months before it have been rough. That if that one thing happened, I would have to retreat for a possibly long while - and it happened. So now I’m retreating. It is not punishment and it is not manipulation. It is simply what my psyche and the mass around it now demand.

And I’m not going to lie, it has been tempting to hate everyone and everything all of a sudden. As though part of the natural reaction that leads to pulling away and avoiding further harm. But worry not, if you deserve better, I’ll make the due distinctions as I regain my clarity. Meanwhile, I ask that you be understanding of my withdrawal of energy and such.

This means that, no, I’m not really checking messages. Not most of them, anyway. If they won’t sit there long enough, then I’ll forever miss them. I will check them once I have space to hold them again. I’m only keeping in touch with a few people during this period. I occasionally get curious and check on more, but I shouldn’t if I am to make progress with this recovery. Please don’t take it personally, especially if you KNOW I love and adore you. Just gotta do what I gotta do to get through this.

I repeat: Take care and be well!
(Besides, I believe y’all could use some time together without me being in the way!)

MAY OFF!

I'm taking May off. Won't even have Sunday posts popping up on their own. The usual will resume in June. Take care and be well!

Long Forgotten Color Palettes for Costumes

March 8th, 2014. Excerpt from a reference post. Speaking of colors... I did the post-apocalyptic cosplay (first palette) but never got to do the faerie cosplay (second palette). Or did I? Hm. 🙊

I'm afraid I don't carry that much magic anymore. But I don't believe it is a lost cause either. Probably just ought to tune in more often and for longer, with a stronger forcefield around me. Thank you, again, so much, to those who bring it back - even amidst hellscapes. I needed that.

The Artist's RPG / It's The Universe Speaking

I’ve always loved the idea that we are a way for the universe to know (and express) itself. And if that is the case, then artists might be especially suited for that. Being overqualified vessels and vias through which existence flows. As they, when genuine, are outstandingly sensitive to what is around and what is within and can expertly craft a resemblance, even if some only tune into certain aspects while others tune into certain other aspects.

Being such, I’m currently faced with a, let’s say, dilemma in The Artist’s RPG story. Personally, I would like there to be some sort of “Star Committee" guiding affairs and more, composed of legendary artists. But what if that can’t/won’t happen? And these great artists are ultimately only messengers for a blueprint? i.e., They showed what the universe is made of, so you can’t miss it, and now the pieces must be gathered and put together.

You know what I’d prefer. But I let the story carry me when writing… 😔

The Artist's RPG / Components: Prism

PRISM

RECEPTOR

HOMAGE - ADMIRATION - MAGNIFYING

Sameness won’t do. Shrinking won’t do. Why be in that state? Why expect and require it? That is not what all this was made for. There is beauty beyond your senses and even beyond your imagination. And you might catch it if you pay attention. If you can go ahead and appraise it regardless of whether or not others did so before you.

“There is more to it than meets the eye. I will make it undeniably evident.”

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Let there be light. And let there be colors. 

I welcome you in your entirety. With your uniqueness and peculiarities. They are precious. How bleak and bland, how dreafully insufferable, would it be without you? You are not to be tolerated. You are to be cherished. Abundantly celebrated. I see you as you are, and I am mesmerized. Look closer. Closer. Much closer. Have you noticed the miracle that you are? Wait, I will show you.

And just like that, you are unabashedly you.

Sameness won’t do. Shrinking won’t do. Why be in that state? Why expect and require it? That is not what all this was made for. There is beauty beyond your senses and even beyond your imagination. And you might catch it if you pay attention. If you can go ahead and appraise it regardless of whether or not others did so before you.

Is it appropriate? Is it trendy? It is about none of that. How about asking a different question? Is it art? 

What is contained within what many overlook or even reject? Are you bold enough to embrace it? Set the trend and make it appropriate? Can it pass through you and become more than what it previously was? You must apply your own criteria. Biases and prejudices would only be obstacles to observing true nature, to grasping what it is composed of. You must be sharp and you must be clear. Until it is so obvious it is indisputable.

Take up space.

The Artist's RPG / Components: Void

VOID

RECEPTOR

OVERENTITLEMENT - ENVY - GREED

Insatiability puts it lightly. There is no end to how much this can swallow without being satisfied. And how dare anyone say no and deprive it of what it asks? Everything exists for it. Not for another to have and own, but for it to claim and absorb. It suffers excruciatingly otherwise. How can anyone be okay without always getting more and more and more? What else is there? Nothing.

“Hunger is a weak word for how much I crave. I will devour you.”

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What’s that? Nobody has complimented you before? Nobody has shown you how special you are? That’s terrible! You’re a gem! A treasure trove! There’s so much to you! I’ve got my eye on you and I cannot wait to see what else you are carrying with you. Oh, yes, bring it all on. I’ve got space for everything (and more).

Sure, those words can be tempting. After all, when was the last time you felt that valued? And you’re not off, not in that regard. Because, indeed, you are valued. Just not in the way that would benefit you, but in the way that would benefit them. The way it will have you giving and giving and giving until there’s nothing left in you to give anymore. Nothing else they’d see value in. Then you are replaceable. Something to merely discard after serving.

Insatiability puts it lightly. There is no end to how much this can swallow without being satisfied. And how dare anyone say no and deprive it of what it asks? Everything exists for it. Not for another to have and own, but for it to claim and absorb. It suffers excruciatingly otherwise. How can anyone be okay without always getting more and more and more? What else is there? Nothing.

What may seem harmless at first can quickly become devastating to all around. This vacuum doesn’t rest until it has what it came for. It will move however it has to for it. And then it will keep going. If there is any positive and constructive contribution from it, it is to show what absence looks like. Maybe its insides, too.

Sometimes, lack is real, and so deep that we are starving, so we feast if given the chance. Excessively so. But when lack governs over you, even amidst abundance, it will make extinct even that which it claims to adore.

NOTE: This is a component to use with extra caution or dismiss completely, as it operates against art when unchecked.

Pre-2020 Vibes Coming Soon to My Pinterest

I doubt I can gather them all at once, but old pictures that capture the vibe are coming soon for sure!

Although I'll keep individually recalling older posts when they come to mind or come up in a topic, I figured I would like to have a broader view of the sights I've captured throughout the years. It's great that there's still so much left to see and hold on to ahead of us. However, there's something about Pre-2020 that I'm not getting back, yet, that I can look back to! So, indeed, I'll go through the trouble of compiling them. 💟