The Death of Slim Shady (Live Performances)

I'm wrapping it up! Watching him perform is something else. I have to limit my exposure to Eminem’s live performances because I don’t wanna be, let’s just say, pathetically starstruck by his awesomeness. But it isn’t a complete day without these theatrics. He did make a full comeback! 

PS: I was in awe of the sets at other concerts, too, featuring more of a graveyard. Absolutely nothing was half-assed, huh?

The Death of Slim Shady (In Conclusion...)

I wanted to open a can of worms, and a can of worms was opened. Surprisingly, can even directly quote some of the lyrics going, “Just opened the biggest can of worms on the whole planet Earth.” But to be fair, it could have been worse.

Boys are dumb, I still cringe and get grossed out witnessing and/or listening to Slim Shady’s antics, tons is rotten, and I’m confused af about what a lot of it meant or was referring to. I tried to go at it in order, but it doesn’t seem very chronologically organized. Maybe there’s a different sort of arrangement to go by. I don’t know. I’m expecting I’ll have realizations over time, to further comprehend it all, when more dots manage to connect (or I come across the answers).

At this point, what I can firmly say is that I sincerely appreciate all the work that went into giving Slim Shady a funeral. Or something like that? It is unclear! But, I mean, how it was so on theme and how imaginative and creative it came out as. If I weren’t such a blatant admirer of artists’ abilities, I’d be envious. ‘Cause, jeez, what a show!

Personally, I believe I can declare Temporary as my top favorite track. I hated it so much. But then loved it so much, too. Death (and moving on) is always a heavy subject, but oughta confront it nonetheless. It was also such a magnificent time-capsule-message embedded piece that it blew my mind. Then, against my will, I fell in love with Guilty Conscience 2. (Don’t get me started about how much Guilty Conscience stood out for me and what a treat a continuation of it is for someone like me!)

I’ve said it before, I’ll say it again: Though the King of Controversy is sorely missed, that’s one hella demanding job. Besides, I want to see Marshall, the “chopped liver”.

The Death of Slim Shady (Tracklist)

A mere few days definitely aren’t enough to take this album in as thoroughly as I would like to. Thank goodness that it is not the end of it (it remains there to be revisited) and it is only the end of my current reviewing. I AM listening to all of the tracks, though, and trying to piece them together. But for now, just emoji-coding them!

. Renaissance (intro) 💣

. Habits 🚩

. Trouble (short) 👥

. Brand New Dance 🎈

. Evil 👿

. All You Got (skit) 👥

. Lucifer 📓

. Antichrist 📓

. Fuel 🥊

. Road Rage 🚩

. Houdini 💣

. Breaking News (skit) 🚨

. Guilty Conscience 2 👥

. Head Honcho 🥊

. Temporary 💔

. Bad One 🚩

. Tobey 📓

. Guess Who’s Back (skit) 💀

. Somebody Save Me 💔

. Steve Berman (skit) 🚨

. Fuel (Shady edition) 🔥

. Like My Shit 🔥

. Kyrie & Luka 🔥

The Death of Slim Shady (Lyric Video)

Okay, I’m not even gonna attempt to grasp everything that’s going on here. But there’s wordplay to catch, a ride into and through that side of town, and what seems to be an ongoing fight between Marshall Mathers and Slim Shady - including zombie Slim Shadys (and both of them swollen, pfft).

Possibly the craziest Lyric Video in existence, but I’m mostly captivated, and humored, by how it’s done in a retro pixelated video game style. Plus, comic books’ flair. And just so shamelessly absurdist that I realize all over again that Eminem’s the sort of guy to name himself after M&Ms. And that’s… brilliant. To say the least.

The Death of Slim Shady (Music Videos)

I immediately appreciated how Houdini seemed to be an ‘answer’ to Without Me’s line, “Now, let's go, just give me the signal. I'll be there with a whole list full of new insults.” Yet, more than that, how it played with the passing of time. It’s been a while indeed and things have changed plenty. It packaged and delivered the nostalgia outstandingly, bringing it into today. It did come across as pretty random, though, nevertheless, clever. And I was hooked by the line, “And for my last trick, I’m ‘bout to reach in my bag, bruh.” I suppose it was referring to the insane content within the album?

Not gonna lie. This one was triggering the heck out of me. I had to force myself to actually listen to what was being said. Or attempting to communicate. And remind myself that it wasn’t catering to me and my sensitivities, in particular. That ~I’m not the only one with issues~. My snap judgment was that it was such a defeatist pity party, and I, forever the ~where there’s a will there’s a way~, despised that. It might be that it painfully reminded me of my own powerlessness to help people dealing with addiction problems (been there, not a happy ending story) and the sad reality that you can only help those who want to be helped and who will also help themselves. But taking myself and my personal issues out of the equation, and valuing it for what it is, I’m so grateful that such an intimate look at the struggles one could find themselves in was given. Somebody Save Me is heartbreaking, especially if you’re the kind who’s there for others or wishes to be.

Then, Temporary broke me. Confused or not, damn it. I was not ready to cry this much over a freakin’ song by no other than EMINEM. I ended up MAD. Like, what even was this about? Some hypothetical death and being asked to move on? But then again, it’s a family thing, and I’m only a stranger on the outside looking in, so what can I even say? I don’t know, but it messed me up regardless. ‘Cuz wutcha talkin’ about? I don’t want to move on! SIGH. Anyway, I listened to it recently, and it doesn’t stir me like that anymore. But it’s still so damn upsetting and unsettling. Jeez. The girl in me, with an absent father, was made to experience a multitude of feelings.

In general, though, gotta keep applauding Eminem’s genius.

The Death of Slim Shady (Teasers & Trailers)

Umm, yeah. Can’t tell if Marshall Mathers’ brain is more saturated with horror movies and overall stories than mine is. I’ma have to bet yes. What even is that thing? “Fear not, you’re in the hands of heroes!” Not sure if I should read that in a serious or mocking tone, either. But okay, let’s keep going…

Why are you spitting on Slim Shady’s grave? What’d he do to you?! Man, it’s times like this when I realize that I wasn’t enough of a fan, tracking every move of each and all these personalities, because I’m missing so much context. I mostly just remembered Slim Shady as ‘problematic’, ‘politically incorrect’, and ‘giving free advertisement’ to everyone he picked on or merely mentioned in his rapping. Along with the many abilities he rightfully gets credit for. But what do I know? Maybe it does take people like Dr. Dre to withstand him. And even then…

Hmm. This ambiance struck me as familiar. I don’t know if it is intentional or not, though. Or just a coincidence. But even if it’s coincidental, it might have been subconsciously connecting to it for some reason. It reminds me of “Not Afraid”. Maybe I just really liked that music video. But most importantly, what is this person being forced to watch and why? Guess I’ll have to listen to the album…

There’s even an Expanded Mourner edition?

Truth be told, I was reluctant to expect much coherence within this whole fictional universe. Could all just be a mixture of sensationalist stuff that rhymes and references. Which, if the case, whatever; at least it sells. Not everybody can, or should even attempt to, be a die-hard nerd. But if I’m not mistaken, he emphasized somewhere that it was a CONCEPT album and asked to listen to the tracks in order so that we could get it. Or so I heard. If so, sounds like there was plenty of thought put into it.

The Death of Slim Shady

Buckle up, ‘cause I’m finally going into it! I’d been puzzled about it and drawn to this concept album since it was first announced. Horror, crime, antiheroes? Count me in! I couldn’t give it the attention it merited before (too angry, too sad, too ‘can hardly give a f**k’). Now I can, though.

It is not a secret that this is actually my all-time favorite side of Eminem. The darker stuff, shining a light on it. And how, even while being quite hands-on, raw and explicit, it gets quite psychological too. Talk about thrillers. I love him for it (understatement).

This came as a shock to me, however. Killing Slim Shady? Look, I disagreed plenty with the guy, er, character, and believed he’d be my high school bully if both were put in the same setting, but killing him? Really? I can’t kill my own OCs that nobody’s heard of, how can anybody permanently kill a figure as great as Slim Shady? This had to be some sort of joke. But anyhow, I was clueless about where all this was coming from and where it was headed, so I tried to suspend my judgments until later.

Today is Friday the 13th, and digging into The Death of Slim Shady seems oddly fitting for the occasion.

CURRENT, UPCOMING, and PREVIOUS Events

The week to open this can of worms has started. Excuse me while I try to deal with it amidst the state of the world and my own instability... 

I decided I wouldn't be putting it off for too long after all. Though I do hope and pray, and am doing my best, so that I'll be free enough for all of it by the time the dates come. This is truly some historic stuff!

(More of the previous events are to be listed later on...)

Joining an Event? Here are Pointers!

‘Joining’, at least so far, basically means that you will be tuning in to the selected media (brought here) and the posts, mine or others’, around it. As a fun exercise in appreciation, potentially also reflection, or merely to catch a break (unlikely that that’s all there will be to it if you have an artistic brain, though). You might also walk away from it inspired and motivated to do more of your own thing.

It is your choice!
If a selected media does not appeal to you, you are under no obligation to tune into it. At worst, you’ll just miss out on what it has to offer and the references that are later made around it. Which could be a bummer, yet certainly not the end of the world. However, if it’s worth it to you, and you can make the space for it, then you’re in for what could be a delightfully enriching ride!

Remember the 3 R’s!
Tuning in won’t do, however, if you’re not in optimal (or close enough) conditions for it. To be so, you must be Rested, Relaxed, and Ready. If you’re Rested, you are able to pick up and process more. If you’re Relaxed, you will be able to focus and immerse more. If you’re Ready, you will be able to have an enhanced experience. Being Ready can consist of something as simple as sitting back comfortably to something as elaborate as a full-blown celebration complete with drinks and snacks that fit the theme. Don’t complain about not having a good time if you were lacking in the aforementioned! (That’s a You problem.)

There are countless ways to interpret!
You can take it at face value and be done with and over it without any issue. But some of us not only like, but are PHYSICALLY & PSYCHOLOGICALLY unable to not go further with it. We may ponder the worldbuilding, the plots, the characters, the dialogues, and any and every perceivable element or symbol at play. It is good practice to keep in mind, however, that your interpretation may be only that: your interpretation.

That said, a few hints:
• Relating can go from 0% to 100%.
• Ressemblance can be literal, as a metaphor, and “maybe in an alternate timeline or parallel universe”.
• Resonance can occur regardless of gender, race, age, and other traits. May even happen with abstract phenomena and inanimate objects.
• When ‘Based on Real Life’, generally, there’s an emphasis on ‘Based on’. They are not reenacted with the utmost precision and accuracy. Real Life will always be much more detailed and complex than what fits within a piece of media. Media often is tailored to suit something else.
• Fictional stories are fantastic. It is both fortunate and unfortunate that only a portion of them is experienced for real.
Ultimately, you do you and find how to make the most and best of it.

And if your calendar allows it, you can save a date!
It is probable that I will say, upfront, when, exactly, I will be dedicating myself to it. But matching my schedule is definitely not required (though a few pals do it for the extra joy of it). You can go before me and wait for me to catch up and bring my input or after me and dig into all the input I already brought. Or something like that.

I do recommend participating…
Yet, again, even if you’re closely and religiously keeping up with the “Unbridling and Sustaining Artistic Abilities” program, these Events are complementary, not mandatory! There’s a chance I’ll summarize, too, so no one’s totally clueless regardless.

Events? It’s Official!

You may be late to the party, but still early enough to join!

Taking some time to enjoy media is something I enjoy doing (that then allows me to appreciate it). And every once in a while, there’s a piece of media that I look forward to indulging in. During these times, I may be casually or formally posting about it. And this is the section where many of those posts will go.

In the past, it was something I did more personally, scattered around, but I noticed (shockers) that just as I love taking part in this sort of activity, others do too. It is quite related to the whole being an artist. Gotta love art to make art.

So what was taken as a ‘guilty pleasure’, some undisciplined oversharing I did, is now officially part of my content. And I’ll try to make it special, but not so much that I’m crippled by perfectionism!

In my case, there are a few genres, topics, and artists that I’m particularly interested in and/or entertained by. So rather than attempting (and failing) to check every great cultural hit, my scope will be somewhat limited by my personal preferences. If they happen to overlap yours, then awesome! We can both be in awe of what comes up/out!

The Artist's RPG / Colors

UNDERSTANDING THE PALETTE

Within this game, and its entire system, colors are essential. The lack thereof, notable too. Intriguing and fascinating properties and relationships are inherent to them. Studying them closely can lead to a profound understanding of what makes the world come “alive”.

COMPLEXITY

Among the chromatic colors, there are primary, secondary, and tertiary colors.

Primary colors can be considered the simplest, most straightforward, and therefore direct. Secondary colors can be considered somewhere in between, carrying two colors, and hold a balance. Tertiary colors can be considered the most complex, a mix of much of this and some of that, and therefore elaborate.

You can get to know a color by itself and by what other colors it produces or is produced from.

TEMPERATURE

Among the chromatic colors, there are also warm and cool colors.

Warm colors can be considered comparatively active and aggressive. While cool colors can be considered comparatively passive and receptive. Hot&Cold colors… both.

However, they are all teachers and scholars in their own realms.

COMPANIONSHIP

Furthermore, there is the concept of complementary colors, which work well together in different settings, taking off the other’s excesses and covering for their lacks. Paired, they can be a team for a specific purpose.

• Discovery & Insight: “Charters.”

• Management & Distribution: “Providers.”

• Execution & Formulas: “Solvers.”

• Striving & Optimization: “Enterprisers.”

• Mobilization & Cooperation: “Revolutionaries.”

• Tending & Restoration: “Cultivators.”

Yet, other sorts of teams can certainly also be formed.

LUMINOSITY

Alternatively, when it comes to achromatic colors, there is white, black, and gray between them.

Quite consistently, white and black affect how light or dark it gets, and can be associated with figurative highs or lows. But something else happens with gray, as a blend of both, pulling in opposite directions, remaining surface-level, muting instead.

COMBOS

Last but not least, something peculiar manifests in this universe. We have what we call combo colors. Basically.

They are centered on a lighter or darker version of the colors sitting at the center of the warm or cold regions, and can, to an extent, draw from and lean on colors around them. They represent earth, sand, caves, and skies. And fundamentally become a maze of depth and/or breadth.

Being inner and outer, above and below, some would say that there’s a mythical quality to them, as they transcend and withstand the test of time…

You Do Get A Lot Done Over Time, Though

Take a deep breath and let it out. This is a marathon, not a sprint. Rome wasn’t built in a day. I oughta remind myself of all of this every once in a while. If your dreams are big, if they are for the long term, frantically fretting won’t do. Gotta keep it steady and stay persistent. Compounding on previous and upcoming efforts.

Just the thought of it can be overwhelming and exhausting. There’s just so much that has to be addressed and tackled. It may seem impossible. Something you are not cut out for. Completely out of reach. But if you look around and really pay attention, you will see that, if you are committed and able to push through and stick with it, you will make significant progress. Soon proving yourself that it was within your scope after all. That's how I can manage.

Stress can certainly get to you, too. But it is a matter of time and how you use it. Most likely. Can you pace yourself? Can you break apart big tasks into smaller ones as well as put them in order? Can you delay gratification or, better yet, find gratification in the process? Ironically, sometimes slowing down gets you where you’re going faster. May even better guarantee that you’ll actually get there, rather than merely wearing yourself out.

At the end of the day, you are only a person. There is only so much you can do by yourself within a short time frame. But within a week, a month, a year, a decade? Now we’re talking. How far ahead do you look? Are you even allowing yourself to be far-sighted? I know that being stuck in or barely coming out of survival mode can mess with your ability to aim beyond the day-to-day. Been there. But if we lost it, we must regain it.

More than just survive, let’s thrive. Let’s look at our circumstances and decide that they could be improved. Then work persistently toward that. Guard your health, guard your sanity, guard your vitality. So that the span you have to work within will expand rather than shrink. This should be your priority to outlast adversity.

How many skills have you already developed? How much knowledge have you already gathered? How many accomplishments have you already achieved? How much have you already grown, matured, and evolved? You’ve done it before. You can do it again.

Cycling Pisces

Pisces is arguably the most intriguing and fascinating sign in the Zodiac, while also being the most understated. It represents the epitome of spirituality, although how you define that can still be debated.

In the case of Pisces, it is about possessing an unmatched combination of sensitivity, empathy, and imagination. All qualities that allow diving into what the abstract realm is made of, as much as possible.

It is said that, as the 12th and last sign on the wheel, before the cycle restarts again with Aries, it has absorbed the lessons that came before, having done a full journey. You would assume that this would automatically make it the most powerful and, in some ways, it is. However, the reality of it is much more complex.

Because we primarily exist not in the spiritual plane but in the physical (and one not even close to ideal), Pisces can be especially pushed and challenged. Particularly struggling with themes of imprisonment and escapism ("I've seen it and it is terrible! Get me out of here!"). Yet, at the same time, able to be acutely aware of what moves, visible or not to others, subtle as it may be. And if moments of reflection can be afforded, mysteries of the universe and beyond can be accessed.

Beware of falling into delusions and/or of being deteriorated by harsh realities.
Then you can eternally play within the soothing and nourishing sea of mysticism.

For context and more of relevance, please read about The Zodiac.

So Creative!

Artists be making Art and you’re like, “Haha, that’s so Random/Spontaneous! You’re so Creative!”
And then you’re like, “Oh, oh…”

The Artist's RPG / Art's Universe

If you’ve made it to this point, congratulations (or condolences). Artistry has led you to acknowledge that there is something much grander, mysteriously at play.

It is matter and spirit. But what is matter without spirit? Not great art or art at all.

Through the vast and endless space, filled with countless stars and constellations, meticulously involving all that composes this cosmic reality, the bright and the brightest illuminate the way. Come along if you dare to be a part of it and perhaps find your divine role as an artist.

On this expedition, you may be both inspired and motivated, but also challenged to meet your potential, pushing for excellence beyond worldly standards, overcoming obstacles and defeating opponents.

Explore, experience, express, experiment, expand.

The Artist's RPG, And So, It Formally Begins...

The Artist's RPG has been in the oven for quite a while, vaguely and subtly introduced during draftings, but we now begin to formally get into it, periodically releasing bits of it to later on officially put together - with even more around it! If you're a geek for it, you're likely to enjoy this ride, keeping up with every post (on Sunday afternoons and then some), learning what it's all about.

Are you a fellow Artist RPGer in Spirit?

Welcome aboard!

Nobody Said It'd Be Easy

Phew! I can’t believe I’m still standing, but I am. When I decided to go on this mission, of essentially being Art’s #1 supporter, or just someone devoted to the whole ‘Unbridling & Sustaining Artistic Abilities’, I had no idea how much it implied and entailed. I knew it was a vast world of possibilities for studying and making content that I could be forever passionate about, and that was more than thrilling to me, but damn! It is certainly not without obstacles and opposition.

Yet, it still remains a grand and profoundly invigorating purpose for me. During my ‘Exploring & Experimenting’ period, I could be so discouraged, worrying I would never find My Thing™, and it could be depressing and anxiety-inducing. Now that I’m finally where I can believe I’m meant to be, it can be tough and it can be tricky, but still what I want to be doing and who I need to be.

So much has happened, and is still happening, since that moment I could first ‘lock in’ and start giving it my all in one definite direction, that it is nearly impossible to fully recount. Yes, I can seem scattered, but you can trust that it is all connected and aligned. However, despite and because of it, it doesn’t cease to be the most epic adventure I could have possibly embarked on.

Did things go as I initially expected them to? Nope. It’s like that saying, over and over again, “We make plans and God laughs at them.” But, in this case, it’s more like he sighs and goes, “Child, there are far greater things in store for you.” And he’s right. Not without plenty of eye-opening and character-developing experiences, though! Frustrating, to say the least. Yet, with all things considered, ultimately worthwhile.

I’ve always cared about getting stronger, wiser, braver. Perhaps to a fault, because that path isn’t compatible with other, also desirable, paths (and their rewards). And that’s what I’ve been getting the most. Often, not even as my own choice. Nonetheless, this time, it is manifesting in a way that it isn’t breaking me. And credit where credit is due: I have a hand in that, too.

The crazy thing is that, when you’re resolute about championing a cause that is greater than yourself, you will be pleasantly and unpleasantly surprised by all the allies and enemies that will show up. And all the work that corresponds with this. Sounds dramatic, but this barely begins to cover it.

Would I do it all over again? Heck no. But do I regret it? HECK NO.

I only ask to be capable of continuing for as long as I ought to.

2026's Calendar

Undeniably, 2026 is a hectic, quite unpredictable, year. So there won't be much set on this calendar. Mostly, just respecting seasons and honoring traditions. It will be more eventful in the future, when more is fully settled. Meanwhile, however we can, let's keep going!

Birthdays

Beginnings, beginings…
Who knows what’s in store for us?

Returning to Spring

Seasons change, we're still spinning...
It might have been a tough Winter but, again, here comes Spring!

You belong with... Who?

If a person is not giving you the sense of security you require to be at peace, unless you have an undeniable obligation to them that justifies putting you through that turmoil, it is okay to distance yourself psychologically and/or physically. And if they’re reasonable enough, they should understand that.

Maybe they’re going through something, maybe they haven’t quite gotten to the better version of themselves yet, maybe there’s some sort of compatibility issue to be sorted out, or they’re just awful. Whatever it is, it is THEIR responsibility, not yours, to deal with their part of it.

If they wish to strive toward one path or another, sources of healing, clarity, empowerment, and more, abound. Available to anyone who cares enough to do the work. It’s not like, by protecting yourself, you’re causing them to starve.

Let them do what they oughta do. Time will tell whether you belong together or not.

Bad Bunny’s Halftime Show @ The Super Bowl 2026

I don’t always tune in for the Super Bowl’s Halftime Show, but this year I did. And whoa! I do not regret it at all. I’m extremely glad and relieved I didn’t miss it. ‘Cause what a show! And more than that… What a moment in History!

Of course, I’d been hearing about it. There was controversy around the fact that Bad Bunny would do the performance, with an increasingly (and absurdly) “nationalist” regime forming and taking place in The United States. There were people mad about it. A Puerto Rican?!? That’s not America! And well, he gave them a Geography lesson. It was also particularly delightful how welcome he was in the state of California, which even declared a day in his honor.

Know him or not and hate him or not, something about Bad Bunny is undeniable: He’s got his own flair. One that, as he established himself through his trajectory, brings with it what we’d call Sabor Latino, or rather, to quote him, “Sazón”. Yet, in his case, it is not merely (or precisely) about being comparatively sensual and ‘hot’, but about unabashedly bringing that - and more - forth to an extent like never before. Next to him, a todos nos falta sazón!

It actually made me so indescribably happy to see so much culture plastered all around, telling our stories, capturing our history. It’s like he tried to include everything, as much as he could, and then wraps it up with the line of “Debí tirar mas fotos” (“I should have taken more pictures”). And to do so while on such a wide-reaching and impact-causing platform. It was not only genius, but meaningful and significant af. There were some, Latino or not, whining about how it was showing ‘the worst’ and how it was ‘below standards’, and that’s just telling on themselves. Too shallow to get the point. If there’s a genuine Art & Culture subject, they’ve failed it horribly.

The chosen lyrics that were sung were also quite interesting to me. It’s a bit of this and that, here and there, but, overall, paints a picture of what it’s like to be Latino or, at the very least, to mingle where he mingles. The censored part amused me for real, got me repeatedly laughing about it by myself. And so did the “Cuidao con mi corrillo que somos un montón” part. It was all quite unhinged, but in a fun (and harmless) way.

Lady Gaga’s appearance was such an unexpected surprise! I applaud that “mismatched” move. Like, who would have guessed? And there she was, celebrating a culture, with both dedication and respect. Adding to it no other than one of my most personal favorite songs. However, as Salsa! It’s as though she’s making dreams come true before they’re even dreams, if that makes sense. Then, as if that wasn’t more than enough already, came Ricky Martin to hit us hard in the feelings. Abuelita, noo. Our lands, nooo.

It is no exaggeration to say that a ton of us LOVED it. Especially Canadians, apparently. You had to be awfully determined to hate it in order to do so. Even if you are indifferent about the genre or it sits among your dislikes, the show was undeniably extraordinary. Truly, amazingly put together (best appreciated in video, though). That level of attention and commitment it must have taken to get it all exactly as it went astounds me and makes me grateful that there are still people giving so much to art.

That moment when Bad Bunny looks straight into the camera, and therefore into your eyes, to tell you, as if one-on-one, to believe in yourself and that you’re worth more than you think is priceless. The self-care gift you might not have known you needed but got anyway. 

You think I'm oversentimentalizing this? Understandable. But did you see the trailer? If you haven't, you should. It speaks for itself. Our ancestry and our roots have been wonderfully preserved. More profoundly and grandly than I could ever ask for. My heart is beyond full. 💝

Guess I’m listening to Bad Bunny now...

PS: I absolutely adore the irony of practically 'Seasoning' a 'Super Bowl'.

Pisces' Season

♓ PISCES

As we enter the season of Pisces, it is believed that the universe will be affecting us with energies that will cause us to dream freely and connect emotionally. We will be more in tune with our intuition, and abilities to create and heal will be enhanced. If you are receptive to them, you might be imbued with compassion and imagination. If you are resistant to them, you might be conflicted with escapism and confusion. If you are completely blocked out, you might not notice them at all. And if you don't pay enough attention, you might miss opportunities to tap into your spiritual side.

Motivational Quote: "Let your imagination guide you to the stars."

For context and more of relevance, please read about The Zodiac.

Unexpressed Love

Please believe it, that I haven't gushed as much as I have in me to gush about all the things I love, have loved, and will continue to love. BUT THE DOW.

(It keeps me going, however. And I'll get there! 💝)

Taylor Swift's Opalite

Sweet. Regardless of everything that is currently happening, which is heavy stuff, to say the least, I’m glad an official music video was made for Opalite, an undeniable favorite, and that it was out in time for February, way to set and fit the mood! Again, my heart may be full of hate and whatnot, but lovable art is lovable. And I’ll be singing and dancing along as if whatever.

An answered prayer. Yet, beyond being a personal favorite, I’d say that it is a good thing that, for a break, the focus was put on such a piece during these trying times. It can’t all be doom and gloom 24/7. Besides, the way things have been, culturally, it is a common phenomenon to suffer from failed or non-ideal relationships. So it addresses a problem, it tends to a wound, it validates an experience. Much worse things are happening in the world, indeed, but that doesn’t mean we shouldn’t take a moment for a bit of medicine if we need it. And can you argue that Opalite is not that?

I see many people enjoying it through the joy of seeing Travis and Taylor, as a couple, pictured in it. And that’s valid! In my case, though, I continue to not exactly be a fan of that relationship, so I’m left with all else there is to appreciate about it - which is plenty. 

The look and feel of the 90s got me, of course, as a true millennial who partly survives on nostalgia and sentimentality. And how they managed to capture and convey that period was outstanding! Especially as it leaned on quirks and silliness rather than glamour. Striking the graceful balance of poking fun at it without making fun of it. It’s serious but not that serious. I loved this so much.

It also gave us a handful of different relationships reflected back at us. Functional and dysfunctional. To be pondered (the internet is going wild trying to get the corresponding interpretations). The rock with the cactus, existing together as if they were made for each other, was such a clever touch, in my opinion! The stapler’s issues, though, whoever they are… I just hope they get a qualified therapist and quality therapy that helps them flourish rather than just water them down. And, well, that pair of dorks who are enough of a team to pull off a fun dance routine like that sure have merit in spite of how they're judged. Etc. Etc. Etc.

All in all, this was an adorable drop. I can admit, even as I remain bitter. And if you wish to further nerd out on it, within another context and through another angle, the extended versions, part 1 and part 2, are also released. There, instead, Taylor pretty much gushes about the talented personnel and impressive work behind the scenes, hanging out as her usual self. Hurray for bonus clips!

13th Valentine

   

Quite late to the party, but better late than never! It was Friday the 13th yesterday, in February, which means today is Valentine's Day - with a twist. This, at least for me, flavors it with some horror. So here I am to commemorate it.

If you've answered yes to any or all of the above, you can count yourself in as a potential protagonist in a Dark Romance story. Me? I can answer yes to all, of course. Remember, everyone, it's about the content of the character, the compatibility, and the history you have or can make together.

Happy (belated) Friday the 13th before Valentine's!

(And shout out to those who were there for the worm reference! IYKYK.)

Clone > Robot

I'd just like to clarify, that while I wouldn't be, in any serious measure, emotionally invested in a robot (non-living, spirit-less, and such being) and cannot, would not even if I could, relate to people who are, it is not the same when it comes to clones!

What do you mean, the original is gone and I befriended the clone? Okay, idgaf, that's my buddy now!

Love to you, whether you're a clone or not, or merely accused of such. If you're that wonderful person I've known you as, then that's more than enough. 💕

This raises so many existential questions, but let's just leave it at that for now...

Not my S.O.

I’m sooo looking forward to having an overly possessive and jealous partner so that I can be overly possessive and jealous back (granted that we treat each other great and it’s ~within reason~) and finally stop being bothered with all these lukewarm, half-assed, bare-minimum, or WORSE type of relationships that I keep being offered.

Give up. Move on. You treat(ed) me lightly. I ain’t it. You ain’t it.
At most, we’re meant to be good pals. ‘Cause Significant Other is not the case.

(PS: I'm diagnosing most of you with insanity.)

Communication is Key, However...

Is love, or at least care, there? There is a huge difference between being with someone who is willing to learn about you, understand you, meet you in the middle (or even a few steps further), figure out how to be there for you, and put forward what they can offer you AND being with someone who wouldn’t bother with it if they had the option. It might not be enough.

There are so many guides and pieces of advice all around, about how to make someone fall for you and/or do what you want or need them to do, that lead away from genuine bonds and connections. Do they work? Well, they do, if an empty or even fake relationship is something you’re fine with or even looking for.

However, if that’s not what you’re aiming at, you should steer clear of any tactics and strategies that ask you to behave in a desperate manner (begging, manipulating, forcing) for the illusion of ‘having’ someone with you. Relationships do take work, rarely do they smoothly and perfectly click together without any issue, not to mention trial and error, but you ought to watch where it’s coming from.

Are they drawn to you? Do they appreciate you? Would they consider you? And likewise, are you drawn to them, do you appreciate them, would you consider them? As a person, not merely as somebody to fill that role of granting you a relationship or certain benefits that come with it? Is this compelling to put in the effort?

In the best of cases, there may be misunderstandings. One or both of you may be having an off or low day. Possibly, something happened that caused a block or perhaps exhaustion. Therefore, the popularized phrase, albeit quite useful, “if they wanted to, they would,” doesn’t always apply. So you can’t always expect an eagerness to respond. Nonetheless, you often can still tell when somebody cares and, under different circumstances, would gladly show up for you. It doesn’t necessarily mean that you’re obligated to stick around, that’s a decision to make, but the more you know...

When the willingness is there (and it is not terribly obstructed somehow), communication is easier. The undivided attention and the attentive listening aren’t things you have to repeatedly fight for. Your words don’t get frequently misconstrued for the worst. You are not ‘too needy’ for expressing what you require to be and remain close to them. You are in this together, not against each other.

Unfortunately, this is not the norm, but an ideal that you’re fortunate to find if you do. Emotional maturity and responsibility don’t come by that often. And that’s without getting into compatibility and the odds of it. 

Many give up and, despite their wishes, settle for less. But if that seems unbearable to you, making being alone preferable, then keep your standards.

A Gray Rock?

The gray rock method is an effective defense against abusers who seek to get a rise out of you and basically have control over your emotions in order to wreck your system or just do as they please with it.

It is also, however, something that can be employed when you're sick and tired of the emotional rollercoasters and prefer to have some stability. Stay out of 'drama'.

It may have little or nothing to do with how emotional you really are. In fact, you may have a very rich emotional world, but found out the hard way that it draws a lot of people in. People who are careless, reckless, or just not apt to get anywhere near it. So you 'block it out'.

Yes, being vulnerable and expressive is an artist's thing. Typically. But some people, artistic as well, are more reserved and require more quiet and stillness.

If someone looks like a "gray rock", that could be it, using this method. But who knows, it might be something else. Like being empty, numb, or tough enough to handle prickling and such.

Use your DAMN HEAD! But also your Heart

Oversimplifying the overly complex but, hopefully, you get what I mean.

There's often such pointless fighting over whether or not one was logical or emotional, then going all the way to one side or the other. Guys. You're fighting the wrong enemy here. At least when it comes to building community and the like, you ought to use your head along with your heart. How many awful and even horrible things occur because people were too freakin' set on sending logic out the window? You need it to build solid, firm, and durable structures. You need this structure to sustain your well-being.

It's parasites you should be worried about. And, ultimately, disempower.

"I'm Fine."

May you heal from things you’d rather not speak about.

It can be challenging, and a particular type of struggle, to recover when you’re stuck between needing to open up but not wanting to, needing to be seen but not wanting to, and needing to be helped but not wanting to. I’ve been there and, with certain matters, still am.

Whether you’ve been horribly wronged, associated with somebody who’s terribly wrong, or anything that’s causing you any form of pain and suffering that you did not deserve, that is a heavy burden to carry.

So, for what it’s worth, and while trying to expose you the least, I’ll only remind you that not everybody is a monster, that you are not completely surrounded by monsters, and that there are still people around with a genuine sense of justice and fairness. They would be appalled, disgusted, and probably even enraged by what you are going through or had to go through.

Many of us are in situations that force us to rush and be stingy, without much room to think and feel for others, occupied with ourselves and our own matters. But even when circumstances make us selfish or merely self-serving, many of us are not vile and cruel to the point of going out of our way to harm others. We’re simply too busy to show all the care that you should rightfully receive.

None of this is to guard from blame and skip both shame and guilt, as we all should aspire to be the best human beings that we can be (and create and maintain environments that allow us to be so), but to try to keep darkness from engulfing you when it might seem as though goodness doesn’t and won’t exist.

Go at it at your pace, how it suits you, and may you find all the support you require to get well...

More Hustling? No, Tea Time!

It is wild that despite everything, all the troubles and the horrors of the world, I was expecting to have another busy day today, tending to chores, errands, and other tasks. Well, no. I refuse. And you should, too, if you're due for a break.

Move and/or remove work from your schedule. Take it easier today. Or even take the whole day off. Have some calming tea. Slow down. Regain some peace. Come back to your body and breathe. Things can wait.

Take care of yourself today. Find some relaxation and, if you can also manage, some joy. Whether that's alone or in company. You deserve it. 

Get back to work later on.

Valentine Month

February is here!
It’s Valentine time.
You can expect an emphasis on care-related content.

Artists Amidst Political Crises

Art is political. It is. Especially when it is being suffocated to death by a regime that cares more about image and control than they do about truth and freedom. Suddenly, you’re painting outside the lines because you can barely breathe while painting within them. And what you do starts and/or joins movements. Or not.

Yet, quite understandably, not every artist can be all in with politics. Some artists build their platforms and audiences for it, and are overall more prepared to confront issues and handle controversy, while others… not so much. And in numerous ways, they may be valid and even indispensable too.

However, there comes a point when acting as though nothing is going on and you can simply continue to do as you normally do doesn’t work. It doesn’t land well. Rightfully so, you’d be called tone-deaf and asked to read the room. And failure or refusal to do so speaks of your stance or lack thereof. Proceeding as regular would backfire, and you would be viewed as selfish, cruel, or just irritating. So you must find what degree of acknowledgement and participation suits you to be able to do what you best do as an artist.

You can think of it in levels. From the least to the most that an artist can do to stand for the right causes (and be on the right side of history). Maybe you can only do level 1 or 2, but that’s still better than zero. Aim for level 3 and higher, though. 5 and beyond put you in the hardcore ally category. 10 can be risky but legendary, stay safe!
0 - Proceed as normal, as though nothing is going on.
1 - Secretly contribute to the affected and/or those tending to them. (This can come to light later.)
2 - Sneakily/subtly create and perform art that addresses problems or pain areas.
3 - Make a clear statement declaring your support and sympathies before moving on to your art.
4 - Focus exclusively on bringing forth artworks that are of significant assistance. (Illuminating, empowering, etc.)
5 - Share guides and references as needed.
6 - Rock the boat with news and more every now and then.
7 - Promote initiatives to accelerate progress.
8 - Embark on projects specifically to gather resources and other forms of aid for it.
9 - Be outspoken about your views and opinions on stage, during interviews, and more.
10 - Be personally active in protests and the like.

Keep in mind that, depending on how you have established yourself, people will be expecting more or less from you. E.g. You’ve positioned yourself as caring about this or that and then turn your back on it when it is under attack/in danger? THE HYPOCRISY. Not cool. Furthermore, your solidarity will be measured based on your ability to be solidary.

Let’s say that you sincerely wish to be a force of good but you, quite frankly, barely have a clue or are confused about how to go about it. What is appropriate and what is inappropriate? What is right and what is wrong? What is correct and what is incorrect? In such a case, the best that you can do is invest in getting properly informed and educated. And if that is going to take a while, consider announcing, in your words, that you’re looking into it and hope to soon know how to proceed, so that you won’t be mistaken as indifferent.

Perhaps you can’t shake off the fear, anxiety, worries, and whatnot. But you really don’t want to be paralyzed. Look for other artists who are already getting involved. They can show you that you are not alone or even how it could be done. The more you find that have already taken the first steps, the easier it will be for you to take yours. Nevertheless, you would benefit from eventually emboldening yourself to be less reluctant to make a difference.

Practice makes perfect and done is better than perfect. Don’t let perfectionism cripple you. Putting in the effort matters, whether it is appreciated or not. And if you make a mistake, you can go back on it, apologize for it, correct it, and compensate for it if you must. Don’t stagnate in a corner; get out there, even if you have to begin with baby steps.

The Atrocious Trump Administration

If you’ve known me for a while, or even look back at my history, you’d see that… No, I do not have an out-of-control hatred for Donald Trump and, no, my speaking out against him and what he is doing (or enabling or allowing) is not a “mental illness”. As he’d like to claim for anyone who opposes him. In fact, I would much rather stay out of politics and just relax at home, remain pretty, and do cosplays. But here I am. Stressing out, losing sleep, and writing this. Because this is serious. And it is going to heavily affect everyone if it is not stopped.

I’ve said it before, I’ll say it again. Trusting politicians in general is… ehh. I get that. I’m with you on that. That field is messy and can get all sorts of twisted. However, this is NOT the time to be “neutral” and “detached” and “objective” because “they’re all the same and cannot be trusted”. There’s such a thing as a lesser evil and simply choosing the better option. And right now, the better option is NOT WHAT WE CURRENTLY HAVE.

Other sources handle documenting and communicating everything that has happened ever since he sat in power more adeptly than I do. And I recommend you look them up. Still, I'll facilitate a bit. Here’s a quick summary of what I’ve gathered:
- Grand promises made to get votes from those in pain not fulfilled. (Even going the opposite route.)
- Frequent ego-based decisions and actions.
- Numerous tantrums thrown over unreasonable demands.
- Irresponsible and greedy management of money.
- Countless lies and gaslighting. (“Truth” Social. LOL.)
- Avoidance, erasure, and banning of important information/topics/discussion.
- Apathy and indifference in the face of needless harm and suffering.
- Obvious cognitive decline and disability. (He went hard on Biden for this, but he’s looking worse.)
- Inability, perhaps unwillingness, to lead in the direction of progress and prosperity.
- Baseless accusations toward anything and anyone that makes him look bad.
(You might want to reflect them back to him because most are likely projections, a.k.a. confessions. “Agitator”,”Terrorist”,”Radical”,“Fraud”,”Criminal”, etc.)
Plus, more...

Now, this doesn’t sound sooooo bad. You’d think. Except, it is. If you take a moment to consider the extent, reach, and impact of each point, you’d be able to better grasp the severity of them within this context. What it implies, what it entails, and the damage that has done, is doing, and will do if it continues to go unchecked. So rather than having them as complete sentences to take at face value, have them as expandables holding magnitudes beyond words. You can do your own research and see for yourself.

I don’t know if he is so far-gone delusional that he believes he is doing great and will go down in history as a great president for Making America Great Again or if he just doesn’t care at all and is just doing whatever the f**k he wants, no matter what breaks, before he dies (because he soon will). Regardless of what it is, we’re paying for it. Literally.

I am witnessing all of this and it doesn’t cease to baffle me that this is who you (well, we) have IN CHARGE. There have been plenty of lousy and phony presidents, indeed, but really? How is this even remotely justifiable? And he’s not alone in this. He also surrounded himself with people of very low caliber who shouldn’t be there either.

The changes he is implementing are taking us back to less evolved times. It is not that somewhere down the road democrats screwed up by people-pleasing and lacking a backbone, or whatever hidden agenda they had, so he’s rolling back to get back on track toward better, toward what’s right. Instead, it is as though he’s reshaping reality to fit his deranged fantasy, where he gets to be “superior” and have it how he likes it. AND AT WHAT COST? No, for real, answer that. Honestly.

Maybe it is worse than this, and he is merely a puppet, or a piece to move in and let be, for unimaginable evil and/or cruelty. But I won’t go there. Either way, he’s driving us down a path of ruin, destruction, and extinction of all things genuine and meaningful. Without truth, without freedom. Am I exaggerating? I WISH. The more he gets to push this stuff without significant repercussions, the more normalized it gets and the more it spreads until it is all we know and we are absolutely powerless. I WOULD LOVE TO BE PROVED WRONG ON THIS. GO AHEAD AND DO IT. Put a stop to this madness so he can be dismissed as merely a bad episode in history.

I normally keep my suspicions to myself, when I don’t have concrete evidence, but I’ll add that I am not fully convinced he won the elections fair and square. You are telling me that this person, who shows over and over again that he is anything but ethical, left it to democracy and fate? Yet, even if that was the case, I don’t know what is more depressing, that he stole the election or that that many people chose him. And so many still do. Which reveals a lot about where people are at in terms of principles, values, culture, and… humanity.

I keep thinking back to how much Kamala Harris warned about all of this during her campaign. I saw her as someone undeniably intelligent and intuitive, someone who did her reading, and perhaps did care that strongly about our destiny, enough to be willing to look hysterical in front of everyone and be mocked for it as she went on and on about it like a lunatic. But after all that’s transpired… Damn, it’s like THE ALIENS THEMSELVES CAME DOWN TO SHOW HER. So she didn’t just worry about it, SHE KNEW. Anyway, biggest “I told you so” in history. She should get an award for that. And not give it to Trump when he gets envious of it.

I am bothering with all of this as someone who is not directly affected. Because it IS that bad. USA has become the breeding ground for very, very, VERY dangerous beliefs. It is testing how awful they can be without being overthrown. Pushing boundaries, setting the tone, paving the way, and making the unacceptable acceptable. Whether it is instinctively or strategically, it doesn’t matter; the result is the same. I’m talking the most depraved scenario as the standard. Don’t take it from me, do the math yourself, factoring in everything that is happening.

It is not lawlessness to be morally correct, but to be morally bankrupt. The systems that allowed this in the first place OUGHT to be revised. But most importantly, and as soon as possible, all these degenerates must be removed from these critical positions. Get competent and trustworthy people to take their place.

Authoritarianism Does NOT Go With Art

Alright, folks, we’ve reached the point of emergency (are past due, actually). What is happening in the world, as the United States of America (possibly the most influential country, whether or not it is “the best”) is under the current administration, with Trump, can no longer be ignored. So I figured I’d put together a few key points for my fellow artists and anyone else, fighting the good fight, that this might benefit.

• The Atrocious Trump Administration
• Artists Amidst Political Crises

This said, if you’re helping, don’t forget to bring your own knowledge, skill, and expertise. Do the best you can with what you have, not only what you see others do - maybe you can do more.

Of Monsters and Men's King and Lionheart

The world, as we know it, may be ending. And everything that is happening in it can be concerning, riddling us with fear. However, if there’s something I’ve already learned well, it is that fear is often a liar (especially when it is intentionally manufactured to cripple) and giving in to it might do no more than lower our chances of making it through. Because of that, and more, this is a song I personally appreciate.

It is not my first time bringing up Of Monsters and Men. I did so, too, in the past, when I went on about Little Talks, which is also a song I hold close, particularly for the parts that go, “‘Cause, though the truth may vary, this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore.” I cannot put into words exactly how much that got to me.

Like many others, I like to stay sane and lucid. A lot depends on that. That we see reality for what it is. However, something counterproductive can happen if we cling too hard to what we can, without a doubt, see: We lose sight of what is or could be beyond it. We lose our optimism, to become realists, but turn into pessimists. We miss out on hope and faith and the very real products of having them. We stop being brave. We resign.

I’m a Lionheart. Maybe you are, too. Or perhaps a King. And while I cannot expect to know with absolute certainty what the future holds, I can tell you in full truth that there hasn’t ever been a time in my life when not believing in myself beyond reason worked in my favor. You ought to believe in your power against ‘evidence’ to the contrary. Because you don’t actually know - you literally fail to gauge - what you’re capable of, really, until you make the most of it. And that won’t happen if you’re cowering, too set on perceived shortcomings or limitations.

Whether you see it or not, this existence is magical in that everything affects everything, and you do too. So next time you look in the mirror, will you see a lionheart or a king or both? How about a team?

Welcome 2026!

I’m SUPER LATE to the party and, given the state of… everything, the irony is strong with this one, but I didn’t want to let the year begin without this routine post.

As usual, things rarely go as planned. Sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse, and some things for the better, some things for the worse. But we oughta keep going, making the most of what does or doesn’t happen. Personally, I’d rather not be too stubborn with my plans, as the universe might pleasantly surprise me with what’s most suitable. So I gracefully allow it, maintaining some flexibility. The real test, then, is whether or not we give up on our highest good when it doesn’t look so promising, remembering to look for opportunities or create them ourselves.

I was hoping this year would be a more easygoing one, a period to return to artsy crafts, without rushing or dangers lurking in the corner. However, as it turned out, it is going to be one keeping me alert and active. I’d make it worse by staying frustrated about it, hanging on to what I didn’t get, but I’ll instead take it as an opportunity to finish building the most solid foundations I can possibly build for what will be the rest of my life. I’ll pay attention, revise, and correct. As well as take notes for what else I could be tackling in the future. In terms of topics and more.

It is also the year when I finally, FINALLY, get to make my space neat & tidy enough to be completely unbothered, at last. I had my messy creative phase, which was much needed (thank you for tolerating it), and soon I’ll instead be operating smoothly. Authentically so. You will see me making many changes, improvements, and enhancements throughout the year, but I promise they’ll be worth it.

About this much, I am excited. So much so that it is difficult to keep myself from sharing all the updates that I already know are coming. But they’re coming, indeed. Just stay tuned!

This year, I wish everyone fighting the good fight: much courage, discernment, cooperation, perseverance, and victory. May you be able to let go of what is holding you back and reach for what will pull you forward. We are all creators and co-creators of reality - and that is a fact.

Let’s all create something amazing!

Featured Posts? You Bet!

Check them out! They are featured for a reason (or several). It is possible that they are particularly relevant to what is currently being discussed and that you’ll find that to be the case too.

Will there regularly be new featured posts? Maybe! But not religiously so. I’ll switch them up as required. Maybe in a month, maybe in 3, or in 6, or in a whole year. Maybe even quicker than that. I’ll post an Update when it happens, so you’re less likely to miss it.

Will it always be 5 featured posts? Doubtful! 5 might be the ideal number, for coverage without overextension. But 3 can happen often, for focus. 8 is not discarded either, for the rare occasions where digging in is a must. Really, it might be any reasonable number, depending. However, the aim is packs of 3, 5, or, if necessary, 8.

You can find them in the column to the left, within the orange-colored module.

Aquarius' Season

♒ AQUARIUS

As we enter the season of Aquarius, it is believed that the universe will be affecting us with energies that will cause us to think innovatively and embrace individuality. We will be more in tune with our visionary ideas, and abilities to collaborate and innovate will be enhanced. If you are receptive to them, you might be imbued with originality and insight. If you are resistant to them, you might be conflicted with detachment and rebelliousness. If you are completely blocked out, you might not notice them at all. And if you don't pay enough attention, you might miss opportunities to redefine your path.

Motivational Quote: "Dare to think differently."

For context and more of relevance, please read about The Zodiac.

Perish or... RISE

All I'm saying is that...
Although I absolutely detest it when I'm just trying to mind my business, maybe having a few disagreements with others here and there, and I'm suddenly targeted by people of questionable, if not inexistent, morality, with smear campaigns and worse, life can go two ways:

1. They get their way. I'm destroyed. I'm out of the game.
2. They unlock Hero mode. This is when and where my character gets tested and, if lacking, developed too. I also hold back less in asking for what I want and what I need because that's no longer merely a whim and can instead be fully justified (though I should probably be more affirming regardless). Furthermore, it brings powerful (and virtuous) people closer to me as they notice the vicious and malicious attempts to strip me of my own power and, ironically, I end up with more power than I formerly had. Add to that the power that my opposition adds simply by being paranoid of me, as they project all of their vices onto me, and that somehow, in one way or another, with how everything works, along with a refusal to give up, makes me GREATER than I even imagined I would be. Yes, the whole wiser, stronger, braver, and more.

I'm not excusing nor applauding these jerks jumping at you, throwing you off, and potentially catching you before you're ready. But it's worth mentioning that these are circumstances that, if you are able to get to the other side, can take you forward, to a point you may not have wished for, but then are glad and relieved you got to.

If this is you and you are currently going through something like this... Believe in yourself and don't take for granted all the support coming your way. From God, The Universe, Mysterious Forces at play, and whatever else you've been planting, knowingly or not, on your path.