"You Oughta Chill." I Certainly Do!

The struggle is real between being in the moment and getting footage. I did more of the former, but couldn’t be without at least a few captures. I got a headache around midnight, due to a combination of factors (partly my bad), and it forced me to sneak out and chill some more until it passed. I still be chillin’, tho, ‘cause this burnout is serious.

So.. There's a Spot...

Back to the 3D! We ended up at a small hotel in La Romana. And I was more than pleased with it! It exceeded my expectations (and met the 3 Bs: bueno, bonito, y barato). The vibes and mood of it were perfect for me and, given the season and more, exactly what I was yearning for (hopefully, I wasn’t alone in that).

That light-reflecting orb almost stole the entire show. I didn’t know it would be its day and night. But there it was, all along. Making it even more magical. I was able to enjoy a fantastic welcome, a pleasant atmosphere, and a room that had everything we could ask for. Add to that, the place was practically all to ourselves during this time. Yes, I indeed got away.

It was an ordeal to get there, however. The first impression, when we stopped by the residential area surrounding it, was that it was closed and abandoned. Then, we couldn’t reach it by phone. But after leaving to check other hotels, we were assured that it existed. So we went back to try again. Once finally inside, it was as if it were a whole other world.

Board Games Forever

Y’all, it continues. My BFF and I are still BFFs. And she indeed made it here! My energy has been very low and off, because of reasons, so I can’t expect to suddenly be at my 100%. But it was, for sure, significantly uplifting and fulfilling to see her again! I cherished it during and I’ll cherish it beyond.

It also made me happy that, despite how many years have gone by, and how much has changed throughout the years, playing board games when we hang out continues to be our ‘tradition’. Our thing. They are taking it to whole other levels now, though. Such an incredible collection of games! I was introduced to some I hadn’t even seen before. Shamelessly, it was a night for me to be a beginner. But I’ll gladly take my losses!

Sorry, but also... That's How It Goes...

I’m sorry, I just get absolutely FERAL when it comes to people who have, are, and continue to sacrifice without applause or compensation, not even external incentives, to do the reasonable, compassionate, and brave thing. NOTHING is above them in my book. Some people get worldly rewards for their choices, and some people get momma bear aggressively growling at anyone and anything that dares come close without paying the utmost respect. You know how it goes. ✌

Dense or Skeptic?

I've seen way too many movies already where there's paranormal stuff going on and the person who notices it tries to tell others about it by being blunt and unreserved. I'd much rather be blunt and unreserved, but this is where I'd make an exception to my rule. They just look mad. Which is not only embarrassing but also causes them to lose credibility and, with it, the ability to actually communicate important or even urgent truths. So, no, you won't catch me claiming that there are aliens messing around within our "reality", but you'll catch me docum- *ahem* making art.

ABSOLUTELY LOVE THE NERDS who still go into these topics like whatever, though.
Please keep it up!

The Loading Phase

Y’all, I’ve been pondering it and… I really ought to change my plans for this year.

I will be further leaning into what I’ve called ‘The Loading Phase’.

Initially, the plan was to keep making Sunday Morning articles so that I could finish covering all the basics of what it implies and entails to Unbridle & Sustain Artistic Abilities, to have a reliable archive readily accessible to everyone, new here or not, before acknowledging TintySun as ‘established’ and moving on to more specific and/or advanced topics, in no particular order. However, I’ve decided I’ll stop releasing Sunday Morning articles this year and instead resume that when the next cycle begins. I will continue posting The Artist’s RPG content in the afternoon, though.

I cannot go on not even following my own damn advice. Therefore, I’ll do what I believe is best for me and my art. And in this case, that means cutting down on ‘obligations’ and making room to more thoroughly tend to what I must (body, mind, heart, and soul included). I’m not betting on ever being as chirpy as I once was, but I can definitely return to loving my work. And that’s the aim. 

For me:

More love = higher quality & quantity 

(And just not dreading and despising this!)

I will keep being active in other ways, albeit sporadically rather than regularly. Yet, mostly ‘keep my head down’, focusing on UI/UX fixes, improvements, and enhancements, as well as making some more content that is missing and that I’d rather not do without, for various sections.

I am genuinely still looking forward to everything ahead of us. The issue is simply that I am not currently in optimal shape for it. Neither are the sites. Hence, ‘The Loading Phase’ shall fully take over.

I’ll see you around and on the other side. ✌

The Artist's RPG / Components' Planes

I wasn't lying when I said that this would be my life's work. And that there's A LOT more to come. So if you haven't gotten sick and tired yet of me nerding out on The Artist's RPG, get ready to look ahead for more.

Undeniably, it's been beyond EPIC to explore the conceptual plane, which turned out to be predominantly blue. And it'll always stand out as being the plane of the "team". If you know what I mean. Therefore, even after moving on from it (on matters of design), it'll always be somewhat at the forefront.

It's been on my mind for quite a while to also have a 'Structured' plane in contrast to the 'Conceptual' plane. And then it became evident that the 'Morphing' plane was too relevant to ignore. A formative plane, as well, because of reasons. However, as I was figuring out their colors, I realized the pattern implied that there had to be 2 more planes - and I agree. Yet, those last two... are not so easy to get to.

My plan is basically to work on the first 4, these 4 years. I can go about them from what I've already gotten to know and what I can get to know within that time frame. But for the last 2, I might give 5 years each, before I start to put them together on paper. They'll require a lot more venturing and diving to complete. (Then again, as always, if at any point I find that something is missing in any of them, I will add it no matter when.)

In short, if I live long enough for it, here's how they're arriving in their more elaborate form:

• Conceptual Plane (Blue): 2026

• Structured Plane (Orange): 2027
• Morphing Plane (Red): 2028

• Formative Plane (Green): 2029

• ? (Yellow): 2030-2034
• ? (Purple): 2035-2039

I'll be taking notes throughout it all and occasionally blurting out what I've noticed, as I've been. We keep figuring things out as we go. But those are the dates I have so far for the sets of posts. More aspects of the game will be built in between, nevertheless!

Just something to look forward to if you can't get enough of this madness. 🤓🎨

In any case, I'm easing down into less hecticness so that there can be more learning and making and less scrambling around. Don't expect me to be very social, but you can expect me to be committed to working on this long-term. 🙌

Thought you'd seen the last of it? Think again!

Stay alive, don't miss out on this odyssey!  🌠

Revenge... Best Served?

I can't believe I got my revenge on my bullies from around 10 years ago, years ago, and am only now realizing I did. And it's waaaaaaaaaaaay better than anything I craved or yearned for at the time, anything I could even imagine as possible. Are you kidding me?! IYKYK.

Summer Is Ahead

In my hippie era, I guess?

August 6th, 2015. One of a few sets of selfies. I've said it before, I'll say it again. TAKE THE FREAKIN' SELFIE. Or photo or whatever. Even if you think it looks bad. You'll eventually be looking back and wishing you had captured more. It gets so damn nostalgic with time and more. I no longer live there and then, and even though I appreciated it before, I now have a newfound appreciation for the vibes of that place and period.

(I was indeed very skinny that year, though. 💀)

Moon Overview

In the case of the Moon, it primarily affects your emotional side and subconscious self. The Moon, just as it reflects sunlight and influences the tides, represents emotional rhythms, intuition, and inner responsiveness. Essentially, the Moon stands for the safety and protection of being at home. And it is in and through it that empathy, nurturing, and inner security develop.

When it comes to the Moon, the sign Cancer shares certain similarities and is said to be ruled by it.

What are Planetary Placements?

For context and more of relevance, please read about The Zodiac.

The Artist's RPG / Components: Armors?

The concept of Armors has been added to the Conceptual Plane. I will elaborate on them later on, but I'm not about to have you nerds waiting months for at least a vague idea of what I'm onto. So, basically:

Golden: Standing out, handling controversy, pulls agro...
Silver: Fitting in, maintaining appearances, repels agro...

Bronze: Getting it done, focusing on the tasks, quells agro...

Abyssal: Usurping ownership, playing victim, draws in unsuspecting targets (& drains their vitality)...

I'ma say I'm currently in my Bronze Armor era. Or lifetime, pfft. I'm quite comfortable over here, to be honest. But y'all can go do you, and I'll applaud you or just leave you be. People in Abyssal Armors, though, can f**** all the way off and away from me.

(By the way, no matter how neat and tidy I try to make these designs, and how I intend to maintain the symbolism, please remember that they're all still drafts!)

A Being of Light? Me? BARELY!

I figure, with how pissed off I get at injustices, corruption, and other character failures and shortcomings, that some may be wondering why I keep insisting that I'm not really a Justice Warrior. The thing is, I'm THIS pissed off because I'm not even asking for stellar exemplary behavior, I'M ONLY EXPECTING THE BARE F***ING MINIMUM OF DECENCY. And too many of you won't even do that. Instead, go around acting and/or speaking as if what I'm asking for is too much or even impossible. WTF. DO BETTER. Or stay the heck away from me and everyone who deserves better. Beings of Pure Light, I adore them, but their hustle is not something I can keep up with. While they're rectifying and practicing what they preach, I truly just wanna punch a motherf***er unconscious or out of this planet. I thank them for their work, because we all know we terribly need it. Meanwhile, however, I'm trying not to have my blood boiling too often and for too long.

From the Bottom Up

It's becoming a (self-imposed) mandatory act to bring back old posts whenever I end up going over something that's tied to it. And these days I've been listening to Imagine Dragons' music again. (Still love it, what can I say? Though the 'cynicism' I currently have does ruin the enjoyment to a significant extent.)

I got to post, on here, 2 times. Elsewhere? Who knows? I don't remember. All I remember is that I did listen to many of their songs back then, over and over again, and could also be personally fond of the name they picked for themselves. It really spoke to me.

So, what did I have to say around 10 years ago?

August 29th, 2015. A spontaneous media appreciation post. It's an icky song, but I'm glad and relieved this has been put into words.

June 12th, 2016. Another media appreciation post. The last paragraph got me thinking now. And maybe it should have been worded differently. Or maybe not. But I like to view it as the link to what we were before all the programming, conditioning, and "maturing", more like rust, got to us. I also seem to have been under the impression then that everyone is 'good' by default, or at least blank. I don't believe that anymore. Some of you demons are born and stay demons (just with more elaborate/intricate guises). It is what it is, though. But to clarify, and as I usually say, to those with enough humanity: Stay yourself, but WORK on yourself. We're here to learn, develop, and evolve.

"Botando el Golpe"

I'm so 'traumatized' by this decade's let-downs that I'm now wondering if some off-the-wall, unbelievably wild, occurrence will interfere with plans to have a good time, even with someone who has never in their entire life said, "I'll take a plane/bus/car there so we can hang out!" and not shown up. Something might happen, indeed, because it's life, but... Tsk, tsk. Y'all should be ashamed of yourselves.

Same but Worse

August 16th, 2015. A reflective post. Looking around, I am compelled to add the disclaimer that, "Hell, no, not to this extent it ain't my favorite." But here we are. In the middle of deeply catalytic events. Somebody asked for more witchyness? 

Off Forever?

I’ve been mulling this over and seem to have finally reached a conclusion I can stand on. It’s no news that I can’t do fake-politeness and pretend at fondness and such. But it also looks like I cannot overstate just how fundamental it is for me to be able to have trust and faith in those I surround myself with. I can only go on for so long believing, “Hey, this person has done this and that, so maybe they’re great and I’m safe with them.” There comes a point where there’s just not enough or nothing there for me to justify or even make sense of my involvement with them. It doesn’t necessarily mean that I’ll cut them out in every sense, but hanging out with them will no longer be. And in some cases, it’s like it’s what they were manifesting anyway. I could subject myself to the torture of continuing this nonsense, but I’d much rather not. And fortunately, there’s not a financial reason for me to be obligated to. Yet, despite how bitter all this may sound, I’ll still (joyfully whenever possible) be doing my work, which may benefit both those I can consider close and those I do not. Furthermore, as always, credit where credit is due, regardless of what’s personally in between, when the time comes, and unless anonymity is preferred. But for the rest of the time? I’m too much of a recluse to deal with any more of this BS. Let me do my work in peace and try not to be too huge pieces of sh*t here or elsewhere. ✌

I Thought It Was Supposed to be Orange?

Maybe even orange-yellow? But no, it's yellow. This was throwing me off, so I never posted these pictures before. But now I don't know. Maybe it was onto something all along? Today, in crazy RL foreshadowing from around 3 years ago. IYKYK. 💛

(Off I go again...)

May Continues to be OFF…

Still out. But I figure I owe more information about it, to those few who are closely keeping up with me and my stuff, and now that I’m more able to form words, here they come!

• I wanted to see Michael this month, but I’ll have to move that.
• I wanted to finish adding about Wonka this month, but I’ll also have to move that.
• I wanted to keep regularly posting on Sundays, but I’ll indeed also have to move that.

I require this break. Not merely being mute or reducing interactions, but being as disconnected as I can be to return to myself and replenish myself as I ought to. I was fortunate to miraculously have something I could ‘fall back’ on that’d make this not only easier, but much more effective. However, it is still looking like I’ll be needing plenty of time. I want to say all of May, and not extend it beyond, but we’ll see.

Do I feel guilty about it? Losing the streak and whatnot. Sometimes, yes. But I did say it. That this year and many months before it have been rough. That if that one thing happened, I would have to retreat for a possibly long while - and it happened. So now I’m retreating. It is not punishment and it is not manipulation. It is simply what my psyche and the mass around it now demand.

And I’m not going to lie, it has been tempting to hate everyone and everything all of a sudden. As though part of the natural reaction that leads to pulling away and avoiding further harm. But worry not, if you deserve better, I’ll make the due distinctions as I regain my clarity. Meanwhile, I ask that you be understanding of my withdrawal of energy and such.

This means that, no, I’m not really checking messages. Not most of them, anyway. If they won’t sit there long enough, then I’ll forever miss them. I will check them once I have space to hold them again. I’m only keeping in touch with a few people during this period. I occasionally get curious and check on more, but I shouldn’t if I am to make progress with this recovery. Please don’t take it personally, especially if you KNOW I love and adore you. Just gotta do what I gotta do to get through this.

I repeat: Take care and be well!
(Besides, I believe y’all could use some time together without me being in the way!)

MAY OFF!

I'm taking May off. Won't even have Sunday posts popping up on their own. The usual will resume in June. Take care and be well!

Long Forgotten Color Palettes for Costumes

March 8th, 2014. Excerpt from a reference post. Speaking of colors... I did the post-apocalyptic cosplay (first palette) but never got to do the faerie cosplay (second palette). Or did I? Hm. 🙊

I'm afraid I don't carry that much magic anymore. But I don't believe it is a lost cause either. Probably just ought to tune in more often and for longer, with a stronger forcefield around me. Thank you, again, so much, to those who bring it back - even amidst hellscapes. I needed that.

The Artist's RPG / It's The Universe Speaking

I’ve always loved the idea that we are a way for the universe to know (and express) itself. And if that is the case, then artists might be especially suited for that. Being overqualified vessels and vias through which existence flows. As they, when genuine, are outstandingly sensitive to what is around and what is within and can expertly craft a resemblance, even if some only tune into certain aspects while others tune into certain other aspects.

Being such, I’m currently faced with a, let’s say, dilemma in The Artist’s RPG story. Personally, I would like there to be some sort of “Star Committee" guiding affairs and more, composed of legendary artists. But what if that can’t/won’t happen? And these great artists are ultimately only messengers for a blueprint? i.e., They showed what the universe is made of, so you can’t miss it, and now the pieces must be gathered and put together.

You know what I’d prefer. But I let the story carry me when writing… 😔

The Artist's RPG / Components: Prism

PRISM

RECEPTOR

HOMAGE - ADMIRATION - MAGNIFYING

Sameness won’t do. Shrinking won’t do. Why be in that state? Why expect and require it? That is not what all this was made for. There is beauty beyond your senses and even beyond your imagination. And you might catch it if you pay attention. If you can go ahead and appraise it regardless of whether or not others did so before you.

“There is more to it than meets the eye. I will make it undeniably evident.”

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Let there be light. And let there be colors. 

I welcome you in your entirety. With your uniqueness and peculiarities. They are precious. How bleak and bland, how dreafully insufferable, would it be without you? You are not to be tolerated. You are to be cherished. Abundantly celebrated. I see you as you are, and I am mesmerized. Look closer. Closer. Much closer. Have you noticed the miracle that you are? Wait, I will show you.

And just like that, you are unabashedly you.

Sameness won’t do. Shrinking won’t do. Why be in that state? Why expect and require it? That is not what all this was made for. There is beauty beyond your senses and even beyond your imagination. And you might catch it if you pay attention. If you can go ahead and appraise it regardless of whether or not others did so before you.

Is it appropriate? Is it trendy? It is about none of that. How about asking a different question? Is it art? 

What is contained within what many overlook or even reject? Are you bold enough to embrace it? Set the trend and make it appropriate? Can it pass through you and become more than what it previously was? You must apply your own criteria. Biases and prejudices would only be obstacles to observing true nature, to grasping what it is composed of. You must be sharp and you must be clear. Until it is so obvious it is indisputable.

Take up space.

The Artist's RPG / Components: Void

VOID

RECEPTOR

OVERENTITLEMENT - ENVY - GREED

Insatiability puts it lightly. There is no end to how much this can swallow without being satisfied. And how dare anyone say no and deprive it of what it asks? Everything exists for it. Not for another to have and own, but for it to claim and absorb. It suffers excruciatingly otherwise. How can anyone be okay without always getting more and more and more? What else is there? Nothing.

“Hunger is a weak word for how much I crave. I will devour you.”

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What’s that? Nobody has complimented you before? Nobody has shown you how special you are? That’s terrible! You’re a gem! A treasure trove! There’s so much to you! I’ve got my eye on you and I cannot wait to see what else you are carrying with you. Oh, yes, bring it all on. I’ve got space for everything (and more).

Sure, those words can be tempting. After all, when was the last time you felt that valued? And you’re not off, not in that regard. Because, indeed, you are valued. Just not in the way that would benefit you, but in the way that would benefit them. The way it will have you giving and giving and giving until there’s nothing left in you to give anymore. Nothing else they’d see value in. Then you are replaceable. Something to merely discard after serving.

Insatiability puts it lightly. There is no end to how much this can swallow without being satisfied. And how dare anyone say no and deprive it of what it asks? Everything exists for it. Not for another to have and own, but for it to claim and absorb. It suffers excruciatingly otherwise. How can anyone be okay without always getting more and more and more? What else is there? Nothing.

What may seem harmless at first can quickly become devastating to all around. This vacuum doesn’t rest until it has what it came for. It will move however it has to for it. And then it will keep going. If there is any positive and constructive contribution from it, it is to show what absence looks like. Maybe its insides, too.

Sometimes, lack is real, and so deep that we are starving, so we feast if given the chance. Excessively so. But when lack governs over you, even amidst abundance, it will make extinct even that which it claims to adore.

NOTE: This is a component to use with extra caution or dismiss completely, as it operates against art when unchecked.

Pre-2020 Vibes Coming Soon to My Pinterest

I doubt I can gather them all at once, but old pictures that capture the vibe are coming soon for sure!

Although I'll keep individually recalling older posts when they come to mind or come up in a topic, I figured I would like to have a broader view of the sights I've captured throughout the years. It's great that there's still so much left to see and hold on to ahead of us. However, there's something about Pre-2020 that I'm not getting back, yet, that I can look back to! So, indeed, I'll go through the trouble of compiling them. 💟

I See What's Becoming of Everything and...

I’m still alive. I’m not switching teams. Even if I’m the last one standing here, I will stand here. I'm with humanity. The other option is much more dreadful to me. You mean to tell me I oughta abandon all rationality and, with it, virtue to join in a mass delusion and denial because a few pieces of sh*t could steamroll over others without remorse and now they want to make the world in their image and/or at their service. Nah. I literally would rather die.

That said, I know I’m not alone. I’m not so special as to be the only one who is this "stubborn". Just oughta survive this wave of nonsense and, ideally, find each other to find more strength in numbers. It is nonsense. And nonsense may spread faster (like a smelly fart), but truth ultimately has the last word, as we make sense of it all (clearing the air). Just gotta keep putting it in the forefront so it isn’t buried for too long (and we don't die from intoxication).

If you prefer to keep your sanity, even as everyone else goes insane, and not even in an artistically inclined manner, stick around those who note, breathe, and speak truth. We might not solve all your problems, but we’ll keep you from being absolutely consumed by lies. Not by telling you what to believe, but by sharing the view.

Then again, I repeat, not even I (so-called horror girlie) can withstand being constantly bombarded with awful news about everyone and everything. I’ll have days when I can tune in and days when I’d rather not. And if you find yourself stressed, overwhelmed, and debilitated, I’d suggest you do the same or similarly. Put the news away or aside when you must. Others who are more capable of handling it in greater doses will keep doing their job. And maybe you can help them be able to do their job instead of trying to do it with or for them, too. 

I’ve come to terms with whatever it will be. Not to be resigned, but to keep doing my best without sabotaging myself with worries and panic. I have plenty on the way, and knowing that puts me at ease, but the more the merrier. Use your gifts and the advantages and privileges you have, and join in contributions to fostering better conditions and circumstances for goodness to flourish.

We definitely can and should do better. Not twist and break ourselves to coddle and enable those who are incapable of leading but still wish to “lead”.

Oh. I See It Clearly Now...

I have this... thing about me. I'm not sure whether it is self-sabotage or the most brilliant and ambitious filter one could have. But I've always preferred to be understated. And simultaneously "somewhat scary". It pushes certain kinds of people out and draws certain kinds of people in. The daring visionaries. That's what I love. Yes, please, more of that. No more of the "So what do you bring to the table?" nonsense, while it's all right there.

Anyways, don't be like me, kids. Sales are awful. And my life has been an ordeal. I wouldn't trade it for anything, but yeah. Or be. I don't know. If that's you, too. May you get to where you're going without too many unnecessary detours and delays!

Wonka Day? Scratch That. Wonka Weekend!

Still going because I took a "short" nap and ended up waking up after midnight. In my defense, it was also ME day. Besides, it's freakin' Wonka! And I haven't fangirled it enough.

Huh? Wonka & Harry Potter + Hugh Grant

Alright, you know how it is. Can't help but think back to other works and posts I've made on them. Now that I'm getting into Wonka, which was by the producer of Harry Potter and starred Hugh Grant, here's what I can look back on.

December 25th, 2015. Excerpt from a Love Actually post. (All there is to it, actually.) *Thinking* Hm. Do I have a new favorite Christmas movie to override this one? MAYBE.

September 7th, 2016. & December 5th, 2016. Excerpts from Harry Potter / Pottermore personality sorting posts. Can you blame me, though? I've checked out a ton of personality sorting systems. INCLUDING ASTROLOGY. Which makes no sense and makes me look insane. It's this stuff that drew me into Harry Potter. I was suffering from the annoyance of the thing being so popular that I couldn't be interested in it anymore. But a sorting hat? The worldbuilding around it? Now, that I can't ignore! (And I did end up watching the movies, but I couldn't get past the first few pages of the book. Too anti-muggles for my taste. Though nowadays I'm like f 'em muggles. Jeez. But no, no, for real. It's fine if you're happy wearing boring bow ties or whatever. That's harmless. (Btw, this was during the era of the self-righteous pricks being louder than the voices of reason, hence my being pissy at Gryffingdors. But love them legit virtuous Gryffies and wish there were more of them.)

December 15th, 2016. Excerpt from a Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them post. And then I got to see this movie. Which was extra cozy for me because of my love for Hufflepuff while living in a Hufflepuff home.

November 25th, 2018. Excerpts from a personal Harry Potter post. Later on, I got a Slytherin card from a friend and a mischief t-shirt from a store. The article is mostly an aimless ramble, but this part still sticks out for me. Then again, I could never quite see myself as simply Slytherin. I got the ambition and the strategizing and the close-knit family deal, but the rest is... eh. I ultimately prefer to see myself as a Thunderbird. Now, THAT fits wholly.

Such is... This...

The concept of Maladaptive Daydreaming has always bothered me. Sure, there's some validity in it if it is so excessive that it excludes meaningful things in life and avoids taking any action toward bettering life. But, dear sir, I will not be adapting to this unwhimsical BS you have going on here. I'll be daydreaming about solutions or just coping within a less insufferable place. Keep up with lofty ideals or keep out.

Wonka's Itinerary

6AM (& beyond) - The world can wait.
♪ Take a look, and you'll see into your imagination... ♪
(Just indulging in all of it.)

It's Wonka's Day!

Unforgivable that I waited this long for it. But at the same time, maybe today is the day it will have maximum effect on me? I don't know. But it's like going into the (dreamy) ER and, I'm betting, actually making it out alive.

Wonka? Okay, Give It To Me Now

I'm waiting for dawn, hopefully can sleep more until then, and will get ready to indulge in the film the entire day. Gonna treat myself to plenty of sweets, too. Posting about it will come mostly randomly and spontaneously. I'm late to the party, but here I am...

I need a ME Day

The past few months, and particularly the past 30 days, had me neglecting and even sacrificing my peace and joy. Partly, I did it to myself. Partly, I did not. But whatever the case, I ought to regulate my nervous system now. Catch me in a Ferris Wheel. F**k those deranged rides.

(If you need/want me for anything, figure out a way to do it without bringing me ANY stress whatsoever. See you then. ✌)

Near Zero Freedom or TOO DAMN MUCH FREEDOM

Some days, I can't tell whether people are demons or just miscalculated and/or had unbelievable tough luck. And I'm not about to launch and run thorough investigations and analyses to figure out which is which. So take what fits.

If you tried or even did your best:
Thank you. Sucks that you didn't make it. I wish it had gone differently. And I hope you can keep going regardless of the losses. Never abandoning your good nature.

Demons:

Can't be bothered to come up with anything for you. I'm so sick and tired and bored of y'all, omfg.