Such is... This...

The concept of Maladaptive Daydreaming has always bothered me. Sure, there's some validity in it if it is so excessive that it excludes meaningful things in life and avoids taking any action toward bettering life. But, dear sir, I will not be adapting to this unwhimsical BS you have going on here. I'll be daydreaming about solutions or just coping within a less insufferable place. Keep up with lofty ideals or keep out.

I need a ME Day

The past few months, and particularly the past 30 days, had me neglecting and even sacrificing my peace and joy. Partly, I did it to myself. Partly, I did not. But whatever the case, I ought to regulate my nervous system now. Catch me in a Ferris Wheel. F**k those deranged rides.

(If you need/want me for anything, figure out a way to do it without bringing me ANY stress whatsoever. See you then. ✌)

Near Zero Freedom or TOO DAMN MUCH FREEDOM

Some days, I can't tell whether people are demons or just miscalculated and/or had unbelievable tough luck. And I'm not about to launch and run thorough investigations and analyses to figure out which is which. So take what fits.

If you tried or even did your best:
Thank you. Sucks that you didn't make it. I wish it had gone differently. And I hope you can keep going regardless of the losses. Never abandoning your good nature.

Demons:

Can't be bothered to come up with anything for you. I'm so sick and tired and bored of y'all, omfg.

Needless Suffering is Needless

I had a tough past, and my present isn’t exactly all rainbows and sunshine either. I don’t bring it up often because I don’t want my work to revolve around that. Not because I’m hiding it and pretending otherwise. And I know that there are people who have it waaay worse so I can count myself fortunate. But sometimes it is as though others assume I’ve been having it easy and make it harder for me. Or there are just too many inconsiderate people around that would not give a damn regardless. I really wish people would stop getting in the way, for no good reason, of those who are helping themselves or even others. And even if someone’s having it easy, how justified is it really to disrupt that? It’s like people are miserable and wish others would be too. For me, personally, I’ve been working towards having a life I can enjoy and be content with. It allows me to be a better version of myself. And apparently, that’s an insult to those who neglect their well-being for the sake of slaving or hustling away (or for whatever misery they subject themselves to). Meanwhile, I wish we could all relax (at least a little) and do meaningful work that fulfills us.