Too Magical, Gotta Save It For Later

It can sound totally fake, but it is true. Sometimes I spend months or even years without seeing a movie, or immersing in some other piece of artwork, because I figure it will be full of so much that I’d cherish that it’s best if I wait until I can take it in with all of its splendor. It might look like disinterest, ‘cause who is even able to delay gratification that much if there isn’t indifference going along with it? But believe it: I can. It’s not so much indifference that keeps me away, but how much I’d detest wasting what could have been an extraordinarily memorable moment to forever keep in my heart on an afternoon when I’m pissed off, restless, and just wishing it’ll all be over asap.

This can be irrational, indeed, and a poor decision, because sometimes it is exactly then that I most need that amount of magic inserted back into my life. But I can’t always help it. And it is part of what drives me to get my life back to a ‘soft era’ and have everything nice and comfy to indulge as my spirit yearns for. Getting there, getting there…

The prime example of this is Wonka.

Are you kidding me?! I still haven’t seen it!! Do you realize how special and significant Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory was for me growing up?! I was still such a wonder-filled kid when I first witnessed that world. I don’t think even I realize just how much it truly means to me. I definitely didn’t want to watch Wonka while in a rush. I still don’t. BUT I WANT TO WATCH IT SO BAD. OMG.

Soon. Soon. Not this month. Maybe not even the next. But soon. Might have to break my rule of going with the seasons and instead recreate winter in my bedroom. But this year for sure. I’M SO SORRY, INNER CHILD. YOU’VE BEEN SO DEPRIVED.