May you heal from things you’d rather not speak about.
It can be challenging, and a particular type of struggle, to recover when you’re stuck between needing to open up but not wanting to, needing to be seen but not wanting to, and needing to be helped but not wanting to. I’ve been there and, with certain matters, still am.
Whether you’ve been horribly wronged, associated with somebody who’s terribly wrong, or anything that’s causing you any form of pain and suffering that you did not deserve, that is a heavy burden to carry.
So, for what it’s worth, and while trying to expose you the least, I’ll only remind you that not everybody is a monster, that you are not completely surrounded by monsters, and that there are still people around with a genuine sense of justice and fairness. They would be appalled, disgusted, and probably even enraged by what you are going through or had to go through.
Many of us are in situations that force us to rush and be stingy, without much room to think and feel for others, occupied with ourselves and our own matters. But even when circumstances make us selfish or merely self-serving, many of us are not vile and cruel to the point of going out of our way to harm others. We’re simply too busy to show all the care that you should rightfully receive.
None of this is to guard from blame and skip both shame and guilt, as we all should aspire to be the best human beings that we can be (and create and maintain environments that allow us to be so), but to try to keep darkness from engulfing you when it might seem as though goodness doesn’t and won’t exist.
Go at it at your pace, how it suits you, and may you find all the support you require to get well...
